Lust | Kian Lawley

Chapter 9

Rose's Pov
I was walking through the dark streets and the only light was the street light at the corner of the street.

I'm confusing myself seriously.

At the party I was rejecting Kian because of Jacob.
But now I'm rejecting Jacob because of Kian.

It's not mixed feelings, it's not a "love" triangle.

I'm not going to lie to myself or anyone in Kians and Jacobs matter.

I definitely don't feel anything for Jacob.
The question is do I feel anything for Kian? Maybe.

My thoughts about Kian and the feelings for him were interrupted when I heard my name being called from behind me.

"Rose!" "Rose!"

I looked behind me to see Jacob running as fast as he could. He stopped once he got close enough to me. He was breathing heavy and all I was doing was staring at him like if he was a crazy person. He's seen my reaction and starting speaking.

"Look rose just hear me out," he said pleadingly.
He continued once he saw I wasn't responding.

"You can't be with Kian," he says
"What do you mean I can't be with him?" I said with the terrible attitude I have.
"You can't be with him because..." He started but looked for the right words to say.
"Come on Jacob spit it out," I raised my voice.
"Because I love YOU," he says.
I stayed silent, I was to much in shock to speak. Heck I didn't even know what to say to that.
"But you can't love me," I say.
"What do you mean I can't? I do" he says grabbing my hands.
He was now on his knees begging me.
It hurt my heart to see him like this, especially when I don't feel the same. My feelings are for someone else.
"I don't know what you want me to say Jacob," I said.
"Say you love me back," he says.
"But I can't say I love you if I don't," I say looking down not wanting to see the hurt in his eyes.
"Wow really?" He said how angry but still at my feet.
"You think Kians gonna love you? Kian doesn't love rose! He only hurts..." He says.
"You might be right, but I have to find out for myself," I say pulling away from him but he wasn't letting go.
"Rose please!" He says pulling me.
"Jacob stop! This is pathetic get up," I say.
"Not until you give me a chance," he says.
"You already had a chance," I say.
"Then tell me what I did wrong.." He says with his voice cracking.
This boy isn't about to cry.
"You didn't do anything, it's what you didn't do" I say.
"And it's what Kian did isn't it," he says.
"I guess.. He made me feel something you didn't make me feel," I said.
"Wow is what he made you feel pleasure! Was it him in your damn pants?!" He says now yelling.
"No! I would never in my entire have sex with someone unless I love them, and it takes a lot for me to do so," I say yelling back.
"Does that give you a hint is to why I didn't let you in my pants!" I say now pushing him to the floor.

Gosh, I feel like a mean bitch but it's his fault. He can't force me to say I love him when I obviously don't and or physically grab me to stay with him also think that I had sex with Kian.

I stared at him with hurt clear in his eyes.

"I'm sorry but this isn't love," I say walking away.

Kian's Pov
Wow that was interesting. Not the reaction I was hoping for.

"Yo man what the fuck are you doing? Let's get to the party," Dom yelled towards me.