I've been living in Guernsey all my life, I'm not ur average girl. I love football and FIFA .
Is there something my mum is hiding from me? My dad is apparently dead. And I'm an only child. 19 years old and lies flood the air.
Finding my twin broth...
Simon pulls up in his Red Range Rover and I quickly jump in. I suddenly break down into tears. Simon pulls over and hugs me tight. He heard everything that had happened so he just hugs me gradually getting tighter.
After a couple of minutes I finally stop. Simon knew I didn't want to talk about it so he passed me the aux cord. This boy knows me well.
I put on my playlist on shuffle and the first song that pops up was House Of Gold by Twenty Øne Piløts. I have a range of artists in my playlist but I love them all.
We carry on listening to my playlist the whole way home while obviously singing to lighten the mood.
It took us at least 30 minutes to get home. Once we get in a grab everything that is mine and run to my room. I lock my room behind me hearing Simon cry out to let him in.
I can't believe I'm doing this again. I hadn't done it since I've lived here. I find a sharpener and something to get rid of the screw. Nobody knows I've done this. No one has noticed my arms, stomach and legs.
I finally get the screw off and start. I make fine lines on my left wrist, gradually getting deeper and deeper making more blood started to flow.
My vision was getting blurry and the last thing I remember was my door being slammed open.
*Simons POV*
I get the rest of the Sidemen and we break the door open. We see Morgan on the floor covered in blood holding a blade. No. Why would she do this to herself.
I begin to have a massive melt down. Tears filled my eyes as I hear Josh ring 999. "The ambulance is on its way now" Josh says. "Put pressure on her arm. Stop the bleeding" Vik says.
I grab one of her Sidemen T-shirts and quickly put it on her arm. Since we have so many. The other boys go down and show the paramedics where we are while I'm still crying. "One of you can ride in the Ambulance" everyone looks at me and I go and follow her. You will be ok. Please be ok.
*Morgans POV*
I open my eyes to see Simon lying next to me and a beeping noise going off in the background. I look around to see I'm not I'm a familiar place. Wait. I'm in the hospital?
I look down at my left arm to see I have it all bandaged up. I don't remember much of what happened apart from blanking out.
Simon had a tight grip on my hand so I shake it slightly waking him up. "Omg Morgan. U scared the crap out of me" Simon shouted starting to cry.
He let go of my hand and wrapped his arms around me. Nurses heard Simon shout so they all came in coming to examine me.
After a few minutes to nurses said I could go home but everyone must keep a good eye on me.
Simon messages Josh to pick me up some clean clothes since my other ones are covered in blood.
I place my hand on my left arm and feel the stinging pain which I created. "Why?" I hear Simon faintly whisper. "I am so so sorry Simon. I haven't done it in a while and... and" I was stopped by Simon placing his lips on mine. I return the kiss as our lips move in sync. We break away to catch our breaths and I start to cry again. But this time with happiness. Simon once again hugs me.
We sit there hugging until Josh arrives with my new clothes. Josh brings my: Adidas joggers, SDMN t shirt and a SnapBack to make my hair look less shit.
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I get out of bed and go over to the bathroom. Josh is leaving now because he has a lot of editing to do so he leaves and goes bad home.
I grab my clothes and go to the bathroom. I start to pull my top over my head but my arm starts to kill. I cry out in pain and Simon rushes through the door. I also see some nurses following but Simon said they are not needed.
Just by having simple cuts in my arms is now stopping me do simple things like getting dressed. Without needing to tell Simon he starts to help me get changed being super careful about my arm.
It takes us a little while because I basically got stuck and we laughed about it for ages.
Once I'm changed we head out of the first office, sign out and leave the hospital.
I'm so grateful to have Simon in my life.
So here is another chapter. Hope u liked. I'm sorry about the self harm. It's mainly because I wanted to feel more like the character😔 Remember to Vote and Comment. Ly guys💖
