Tell Me The Truth// Miniminter FF

~Chapter 60~

I don't know how this information got out there. Like only my close friends know. This account mentions: me and Harry, my depression and anxiety and... me cutting?

How the fuck do they know. Only the people in this house know. I know I have my sleeves up in video but you can't see much plus, it's on my leg mainly.

I didn't actually think hate could be this bad. Like I have haters but I can ignore them. Not a whole twitter account telling me to: leave the Sidemen and leave Simon. But why would someone tell me this; commit suicide, jump already, cut deeper. That's just wrong.

I spend too long looking at this account. It's getting to me. It's getting in my head. I hear the voices. No. They have returned. I couldn't. Not right now. I couldn't handle. I listen. But I don't want to. I need someone. But I can't. I should deal with it my way... the only way I know.

Nobody knew where I put this stuff. Not even Simon. I grab them and run for the bathroom. I lock the door behind me and turn on the shower.

Once it's fine I get in. Open the box. There they lie. I sit in the shower and do it. I cry and just keep cutting.

~Simons POV~

We were all talking about what we are going to do. And if we're going to tell the others but then we hear Josh running down the stairs crying. "SIMON!" He shouts.

Everyone stares at him. "Morgans is her room crying her eyes out and she won't open her door" he quickly says.

I drop everything in my hands and sprint to her bedroom. I know what she might do. But I don't want her to. She's perfect. I wish she didn't do this.

I get to her room and knock on her door quickly. "MORGAN! MORGAN!" I shout.  "Please answer me"

I gave up on shouting and tried to get in. I start knocking the door. Using all my strength I tried to get in. But it wasn't working. I call for the other guys to come up and help but then the door just opens.

~Morgans POV~

I could here the boys trying to get in. But I couldn't let them see me like this. I grab my bandages and wrap them around my leg, arm and waist trying to cover up all I can.

I get out the shower and put everything away as quick as I could and changed into a tracksuit so Simon couldn't see anything.

After I calm down I go to my door and open it calmly. "What's up guys? Something happen?" I question.
"Josh heard you crying and stuff. It sounded like it was bad" Simon said in panic.
"I'm fine. I was just having a shower" I say trying to lie.

Everyone was saying ok and leaving. But Josh didn't. "I don't believe you" he says.

He walks up to me and grabs my sleeve gently and pulls them up. "Is this it?" He says on the verge of crying.

I couldn't respond. I just nodded my head and began crying. He pulls me in for a hug and I cry out in pain. "Sorry Morgan. Where else is it?" He asks softly.

I pull up my top to show him bandages and just say it's on my leg. Because I don't really want to show him there.

"You need to tell Simon. He's worried sick Morgan" he says quietly.

I couldn't get a reply out again and cry. Honestly, normally I wouldn't. But anxiety is the worst thing in the world. It makes you feel shit. It will tell you you're shit. It makes my life a living hell.

Josh leaves the room but doesn't give me an explanation. He just goes. I go and sit on my bed and undo my bandage on my arm thinking I'm alone. But that's when Simon walks into my room.

I try to hide my arm again but he knows me too well. He walks over and sits on the bed with me. "Will you show me Morgan..." he peacefully asks.

I get up, lock the door and agree. I can't lie to him. He sees me everyday like this. I go to my draw and get a pair of shorts and change into them in the bathroom. Instead of just taking my trousers off.

I stand there in my bandages covering my body. I take off my waist first because it isn't the worst. I can see Simon trying to hold back his tears. I then take off my one on my leg. Letting the blood drip down my leg.

We're both looking at eachother trying not to cry. And now finally my arm. It's the worst of them all.

I stand infront of Simon with all the blood falling from my body and we both just brake down. Simon goes into my office area trying to find some bandages or something but he can't find them because they're with my 'other stuff'.

He walks out of my room. I'm guessing to get more bandages. And I go into my bathroom to put pressure on some areas with a wet cloth.

Simon comes back with all the bandages. We wrap up my; arm, leg and waist again and just sit on my bed.

I have my injections today so wish me luck. Hope ur enjoying my book. Remember to comment and Vote. Ly guys🖤

~MeMorgan~