I woke up to the sound of a ding on my phone. I was about to start getting ready for school, but remembered we have a long weekend.
I unlocked my phone and looked at the text, it was from Shawn.
s: Rebeca Im so sorry for all of this. I know it's really hard to take in, but i'm moving in a week or two. I know you won't forgive me but I wanted to say I love you so much, and thank you for being my friend, through all of this.
I was about to start typing, then remembered what happened last night.
Why would he do that? Why was he even leaving?
I just laid back in my bed and wanted to forget about this all.
"Beca me and your dad are going for a walk, we'll be back later! Bye sweetie!" My mom said then left the house with my dad.
I was happy to have some time to myself, to think this all through. I wanted to say goodbye to Shawn, but at the same time I never wanted to see his face again.
I picked up my phone and started typing.
r: just meet me at my house.
s: i'll be there in 10
Then I turned off my phone. I realized I was still in the same clothes as yesterday, so I changed.
Once I finished changing, eating, brushing my teeth, and brushing my hair, I heard my doorbell ring. I was so nervous, I already knew who it was. I took a deep breath in, exhaled, and opened the door.
"Hi." I said looking away from the figure, whom was Shawn.
"Hey." He said back. He was wearing black jeans, and a white hoodie.
"So why did you want me to come ov-" Shawn started but I cut him off.
"I didn't want you to come over, I just wanted to say goodbye." I said back in a cold voice. Which was a complete lie, I didn't want to say goodbye.
"Well, may I come in?" He asked.
I just nodded my head and let him through the door.
"My parents aren't home, so we can talk" I said sitting down.
We both just sat down in silence. I couldn't speak a word, and even if I could I had no idea what to say.
"So.." He started.
"Maybe this isn't a good idea. Maybe you should just go." I said looking away from his hazel eyes.
"Why did you invite me over? I know you don't want to say goodbye. I know you don't want to see me, so why did you?" He asked.
I took a sharp breath in.
"You know what, your right Shawn. I don't want to see you, honestly your the last person I want to see right now. I wanted to say bye to you, because this is probably the last time i'll see you. Your the first guy I ever told that I loved him, but that's all gone." I said smiling.
"I'm sorry Rebeca I-" He started.
"No Shawn, no your not. You should just go." I said holding back millions of tears.
"I know you hate me, and you'll never forgive me, but, I love you." Shawn said. He knew just by saying that it would hurt me more.
"So that's why I'm not going." He said.
"What?" I said looking at him this time.
"I'm not going to New york."
"Why? Shawn, this is what you want, right? I mean a music career." I said. I didn't want Shawn to leave, but I didn't want to stop him from pressuring his dreams.
"I can't leave, not without you, because your more important than any stupid career. And when I'm without you, I'm nothing." He said.
"No, Shawn you can't stay because of me! I don't want to ruin this for you, even if it means your gone. As long as it makes you happy." I said back, struggling to find my words.
Truly, all I wanted was for Shawn to stay. All I wanted to do was hug him, and call him mine. But I couldn't do that, I can't ruin his dreams, I can't ruin a big chance like this for him. This makes him happy, all I wanted for him is happiness.
"You make me happy. And that's all I need. I don't need no stupid career, I need you." He said looking me right in the eyes. Just by his look, I knew he meant every word.
"No Shawn." I said looking away again.
"Rebeca I thought this was what you wanted? I-I thought you wanted me to stay." He said grabbing my hand.
I snatched my hand away from his grasp.
"No Shawn. I- I want you to stay, but I can't stop you from this. No, this is wrong. This music career, is one chance in a lifetime." I said.
"Love is a one chance in a lifetime, and this is my chance." He said.
"Fuck Shawn I love you." I said as our lips crashed together.
We started kissing more aggressively, as he put me on his warm lap.
"Hi swe-" My mom said as she opened the door.
"Shit." I said while stopping me and Shawn from kissing.
"Mrs. Green I'm so sorr-" Shawn started as we both got up.
"No don't be sorry dears!" My mom said. I was worried about my mom flipping out, and never letting Shawn over again.
"I'm glad you two are together." My dad said and smiled.
I gave a smile to Shawn, and he returned one.
"W-well I should probably get home. Nice to see you Mrs. and Mr. Green." Shawn said and smiled.
Once Shawn left, I got into pajamas, put my hair into a messy bun, and plopped onto my bed.
"Dinners ready!" My mom called to me as I went to the kitchen.
"Hey mom."
"Oh hello sweetheart! I see you and Shawn were having a good time when we were gone." My mom giggled.
"Mom! Shut up!" I said.
"Oh I'm teasing." My mom chuckled. I just rolled my eyes in response. I still couldn't believe it. Shawn wasn't moving, we made out, then my parents walked in. Exciting day.
