Doll Face

Bye Bye Baby

Amber

I held the warm cup of cocoa to my lips as they curved around the idea of the nursery being finished. It made birth seem so real. My own flesh and blood wandering the halls. I didn't exactly want a huge house but now the space came in handy.

"Amber! Its finished come look!" liam yelled with excitement, I warmed to the 'nursery'. Oranges,pinks, and pearl whites filled the happy room so elegantly,dressing every honey colored counter top with small girly shades of color and grace. Liam stood back to show his master piece, the words 'Jasmine Sara wolfe' in elegant England scripture over a small light honey roasted colored crib. I wrapped my arms around loans waist lovingly and whispered "thank you" in his ear blowing a sweet chocolate scent in his face.

My only request was that he built the room him self and he did. No help, no money.

"You are most welcome, my love." He kissed my cheek and walked me to my room. I sighed.

"You need your rest, you could hurt your self or Jasmine." He was right every time I walked my body hurt more and more.  He turned and left the room after a simple kiss. I wobbled into bed. After staring at the features of my baby bump for an hour, sleep caught up to me.

The dream*

"Momma!" A small child shouted in fear with moist tears streaming down her face. An impulse told me it was ok to hold her so I did exactly that. She calmed gradually letting me know she was ok.

"you are gonna be ok, mommy." Appalled, I looked up from the hug to look into the child's eyes.

"Jasmine, what are talking about?" I uttered almost a whisper. She started sobbing, her hazelnut brown curls clung to her face as her piercing blue eyes shot my heart.

"Jasmine, what's going on?Jasmine!" her eyes became pale,and emotionless, and at that moment I knew.

* Dream over

I snapped up in bed and flicked on the lamp scanning my room, I yanked the sheets off my bed to reveal a bloody massacre of my bed. Blood drenched my sheets and mattress a high pitched screech got caught in my throat in mid scream. I grabbed my baby bump and dragged my body off of the bed and leaned my back against the wall in a standing position. I sobbed loudly, wheezing as I did so. The door swung open to reveal Liam with my pain medication. His face went pale and the tray he was holding shattered on the ground near his feet.

"mmmy baby..." I sobbed lifting up my bloody hands so he could see. He darted to the wall phone dialing numbers for what felt like forever.

"My wife...she is pregnant...there is so much blood." My body shook in cold shivers as it made its way to pills on the ground.

"Yes, please hurry." He begged while turning in my direction as his eyes went wide.

"Amber!" I slipped on my own blood falling on my side on the shattered glass. Liams hands quickly made their way to my body, wiping off the glass careful not to hurt me.

"I'm....sorry." I whispered as the shiny layer of sweat rolled over my skin.

"For what?" he whispered back in awe.

"I lost our baby." with that, the black dots covered my sight. The last sound in my ears was the faint sobs of my husband and the paramedics yelling orders at each other,what they lacked were the living screams of a new born child. That sound, I feared, I would never hear in my life.