Lights On Sixth Street

Chapter Seven

We waited at Ash's place for James. I called Richard and told him what's going on. He told me I need help and this is a good way to do it. There was a knock on the door. James and Jack stood there then came in. Ash told them that I haven't left the house for a while and my reaction to being touched. I sat there. I didn't want to talk about it. A tap on the shoulder from Jack made me fall off the chair in kill mode. I hissed. They all looked at me with frowns. I couldn't blame them but it was their fault. All of this was their fault. They all knew what might happen! Mom they did! I can't live with it. What they've done to me. Plus all the stuff I've done with Max. Things only him and I know about. Jack tried to hold my hand. I struggled to pull away but he wouldn't let go. He smiled at me with those soft eyes of his. His silly goofy ears that curled a little stuck out. I leaned into him. He gently strokes my hair. I cried.

"It's okay Abs. Let it all out." He said as a tear fell from his cheek.

James and Ash watched us. When I calmed down they asked me questions about what happened. I told them they pushed me into a van and took off my clothes. James asked "What did you talk about though?"

I blushed as I remembered something's I said about Jack. "I talked about Jack mainly."

They all looked at me confused. "Why would you mention him?"

"I was trying to get their attention off hurting me sort of."

James asked. "What do you mean sort of?"

"Well it may have slipped that I'm a virgin and I wanted Jack instead." I blushed so much I thought I was going to explode.

A huge smile met Jacks face. James ignored Jack and gave me a questionable look. "What are you not telling me?"

I thought to myself. Should I tell them about what Max got me into? They would never talk to me again. In reality your death mom hit me so hard I did things unforgivable. "Max worked for the guy in the tux."

"I see. So that's where he gets his loot from?" I nodded. "Good, luckily we got all three of them."

I went back to my house with Jack. He held my hand the entire ride home. It felt weird to be home. I thought I would never get to live here again. I curled up in my bed and jack jumped on my bed and cuddled me. "So you want me to be your first. You're the first girl to say that to me." He smiled. I ignored him and went to sleep. I didn't have any dreams or nightmares. I woke up to the smell of bacon and eggs. I got out of my bed. I walked down stairs and everyone one was there. They all welcomed me home. Jack's family even came by. They all wanted to know how I was doing. This time I was honest I told them I was struggling. Everyone agreed that it was understandable.

Jack stood next to me. "See we all missed you. Now eat something apparently you haven't in days."

I nodded and kissed him. Why did I ever doubt that he didn't care? He's amazing. So are all the people in my life right now. I never want to tell them how low I've gone. Never because I know I'll lose them all. James tried to pry it out of me. He kept asking questions about Max. I knew what he was doing and I was never going to tell him. If Max told him though then I would be in trouble. I'm just as bad as max. Maybe I'm worse. The things he got me to do with him. How can I ever accept myself? I started to eat a sandwich. It tasted delicious. He had a point starving myself would send me to a hospital or kill me.

Everyone was cheery and outgoing. Talking and laughing with others. Eventually I quickly hid in the kitchen. I made tea and started to sip at it when Ash walks in. She looked at me then grabbed a tea cup and poured herself a glass. We didn't say a word to each other but we knew I wasn't going to open up. She just stared at me with a frown. Jack walked in and asked me to join him and John for video games. I nodded and Ash whispered "You're hiding something from us." I shook it off. I hope to God she doesn't start digging into my past because all she'll find is a dead end or a lot of painful despair.