Trapped in a mall, with a HOT guy... for FOUR days, over Xmas!?!
***Recap***
My body was as rusty as a rusty old car part at the scrap yard. Never in my life have I felt so much like an old woman but if they feel like this every time they move I feel sorry for them. I swear I never want to live long enough to feel like this when I'm old. My legs were weak and sore like the rest of my body, if this is what oxygen starvation does to you, I will never drown myself, if I ever want to take my own life that's for sure.
Eventually I was out of there and I noticed Ash clambering out of his spot. Without even me telling my body my legs began working their way towards him. They were like jelly but I managed to stumble my way into his arms before they collapsed and I broke down in tears for a second time after being on an encounter with that guy.
Chapter 18
Rachael's POV
I cried into his shoulder, his shirt was wet and stained, I knew my mascara was all down my face as well as on his shirt. But right now, I couldn't care less. I felt so drained and emotional, I couldn't even stand up he actually had to hold me up.
I don't know how long I was like that for but the next thing I knew he was sat on the counter and I was sat on his lap. I didn't even remember moving, how did we get like this?
Slowly, I lifted my head off of his shoulder which was now soaking wet and stained black. Seeing his black shoulder made me feel ashamed of my rather big breakdown. Taking deep breaths I managed to make a start on getting in control of my body and emotions.
"I-I'm s-sorry," I stuttered while wiping away a tear that had rolled down my cheek with a shaky hand.
"Why are you apologising? You have nothing to apologize for," His voice was soft, caring and soothing. He made my heart flutter but I was still in a crappy mood.
"Well besides being a complete and utter moron, letting things get to me again after I swore I would never be that stupid weak little girl ever again. Being scared of a complete and utter nut job, and breaking down in front of you. I never cry in front of anyone." Oh god! You stupid idiot! I mentally screamed. "And I ruined your shirt." I added, hopefully he won't pay any attention to my stupid little rant.
"It doesn't matter about the shirt, I'm sure my mom will know a way to clean it. If not it's easy to get another one- we're locked in the right place." he chuckled, and I did too. My crappy mood suddenly didn't feel so crappy all of a sudden and he hasn't commented on my little outburst. "And you're not a moron-"I spoke too soon, mentally sighed. "Or a stupid weak little girl and it' good to let all of your emotions out instead of bottling them all up. There's only so much you can bottle up you know." He was right and I knew it.
"Yeah, your right," I made an attempt to smile, I knew it was a poor attempt.
"I don't know what happened to make you shut yourself of from the rest of the world but I want you to know I'm here for you if you ever need me."
Those last few words made me feel happy but sad at the same time. The last time I heard them words they came from Launa, and she ended up leaving me in the end.
"T-thanks," I managed to croak out. I hated feeling weak and insecure and right now I am probably as weak and insecure as I can be. He just opened up all my old wounds, the ones I fought for years to heal.
"I mean it you know." Yeah and I thought Launa meant it too, but I was wrong. Though something is telling me that Ash won't abandon me like Launa... and I think I truly believe the little voice.
"I know- it's just... it's just that... the last person who said that to me let me down." The tears were building up and my eyes were stinging from trying to hold them back. I had done enough crying today, yet they still tried desperately to come out.
