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Princesspeach: don't forget chicken wings and beef!!! We're also low on cabbages!

Brained101: sure... I'll get them

Princesspeach: omg
Princesspeach: sorry Namjoon, these weren't for you.

Brained101: kinda figured

Princesspeach: sorry again, I just needed Luxeung to get something for the restaurant.

Brained101: it's nothing hyung, it didn't disturb me at all.

Princesspeach: everything's alright?

Brained101: yeah why?

Princesspeach: you sound down

Brained101: i don't sound at all hyung, we're texting.

Princesspeach: yeah I know, but i can feel something is off.

Brained101: staph

Princesspeach: should I call you?

Brained101: nah, I'm in the middle of lecture. I can't talk.

Princesspeach: it's six pm. You still have classes?

Brained101: not that kind of lecture

Princesspeach: what

Brained101: my mom came to visit me and now I'm getting scolded how I "never call her" and "don't think about the future".

Princesspeach: but don't you? You're in an university!

Brained101: yeah, but she doesn't think that's enough.

Princesspeach: it's okay. You'll get through it. All parents are like that, they want best for their children and are worried when those don't do as expected. Your mom just cares for you. You'll understand when you have your own children.

Brained101: i don't think I will

Princesspeach: what do you mean? Of course you will! Realisation comes with time.

Brained101: no, not that hyung. Maybe I'll get it one day, but I don't think I'll have children.

Princesspeach: are you nuts?? What makes you say that!

Brained101: kids are so annoying.
Brained101: hard to take care of, always begs for attention, you need to do twice if not trice as much as what you would do when you were alone.

Princesspeach: oh come on, look at the bright side.

Brained101: also don't get me started on money... expensive af.

Princesspeach: that's not the bright side.

Brained101: i know, but i don't see one.
Brained101: also, having children will probably sunk all of your energy and you forget your partner.

Princesspeach: that can't be true, the bond only becomes stronger?

Brained101: oh yeah? Which part: spending zero time together, sleepless nights, constant fights about kids raising and so on, makes that bond so strong?

Princesspeach: Namjoon calm down, it's okay to have an opinion, but why are you being so negative?

Brained101: i'm just being realistic.

Princesspeach: where is all of this coming from?? I knew something was wrong!

Brained101: i'm fine

Princesspeach: then explain this

Brained101: do you think I'm blind?
Brained101: or do you close your eyes when you see something horrible is about to happen?
Brained101: sorry that I couldn't keep my eyes shut for all nineteen years.
Brained101: i couldn't pretend to be blind and just wait until everything passes by.
Brained101: i wanted to believe that everything's gonna be okay, but I'm realistic hyung. World is messed up.

Princesspeach: Namjoon, what do you mean?

Brained101: I'm tired hyung.
Brained101: I'm drained from seeing what others didn't.
Brained101: and it's not even my problems that I have to deal with.
Brained101: i'm so tired. And I'm mad at myself for not being able to fix it.

Princesspeach: Namjoon, I feel there is some other reason your mom came to see you.
Princesspeach: what is it?
Princesspeach: don't feel pressured to tell me if you don't want to!

Brained101: remember how I said that my crush doesn't know i exist?
Brained101: doesn't notice me?

Princesspeach: please don't change the subject

Brained101: i'm not. It's all connected.

Princesspeach: okay... carry on.

Brained101: so, remember?

Princesspeach: of course

Brained101: well today she did

Princesspeach: did what

Brained101: notice me

Princesspeach: but... that's good isn't it?

Brained101: is it?
Brained101: I was crying

Princesspeach: oh no...

Brained101: it doesn't matter
Brained101: tears are nothing to be ashamed of.

Princesspeach: why did you cry

Brained101: but I didn't want anyone to see them

Princesspeach: why did you cry??

Brained101: especially her

Princesspeach: Namjoon, why did you cry?

Brained101: you're right hyung
Brained101: my mom didn't just came to see me.
Brained101: she was running away
Brained101: from the problems that I couldn't save her from.

Princesspeach: don't blame yourself
Princesspeach: you can tell me what's wrong.

Brained101: my parents are getting a divorce