A changed life (a mindless behavior love story)

Back To The Past

prod sits up and we walk downstairs, I slip while walking dowm the stairs. I get knocked out.

I wake up in my old room at prods house.

me: where am I?

prod: back home.

me: but it looks like we're at your house

prod: we are.

me: I dont live here anymore.

prod: yes you do,

I try to sit up but the pain in my side wont let me. prod looks at me with a grin. I stare at the ceiling. prod wraps his arm around my upper back pulling me up. I lay against the wall. prod leans toward me and I move my face: no. prod grabs my face and makes me face him. he keeps holding my face and he kisses me. I try moving but I can't. he unbuttons my shirt and starts to kiss my neck.

me: prod stop it...st-

he covers my mouth and locks the door. he runs his hand across my thigh and toward my private area. the tears flood my eyes. he uncovers my mouth. I dont say anything. The fear is overwhelming, just like back then. I look around.

prod: I see you're wet.

me: am I Maybe. .I mean-

prod: dont talk.

I do as I am told. im so scared, so I dont scream or anything. prod looks up at my face and must see the tears. he stops. he kisses my cheek and walks out of the room but he stops in the doorway.

prod: ill wake you up tomorrow, have a good sleep.

he turns the lights out and walks out of my room. why did he do that to me? I fall asleep with all of the thoughts running through my head.

*the next day*

prod: KENNEDY WAKE UP!!!

I wake up at the sound of prods voice. I sit up. my lower area hurts badly. I still have my clothes on though. I get out of bed and walks downstairs. prod sits on the couch smiling. I feel sour today.

me: hell you smiling for?

prod: cuz I want to smile. come sit dowm.

me: nigga no.

prod: whatever, go make me something to eat.

me: no.

prod: fuck you say?

me: nigga I said no. I aint doing your damn work no more.

prod frowns intensively.

prod: you do what the fuck I tell you to do!!! bitch is that fucking clear?!?!!

me: nigga no its not fucking clear!!!

he punches me in the face.

prod: just to remind you, that you always obey me and if you dont you have consequences.

he shakes the blood off his hand. my eyes flood with tears. they roll down my cheeks mixing with the blood. I stand up. and walk towards the door.

prod: fuck you going?

me: outside.

prod: no you not.

he gets up amd walks to me. he stands in front of me. the doorbell rings. prod turns around and opens it. It's roc. prod keeps me behind him.

roc: where's Kennedy?

prod: how am I supposed to kno?

roc: you were the last person with her.

I find a way out of prods grasp and into rocs veiw. roc pushes past roc and hugs me. I wake up on the floor. prod and roc kneel over me. what a weird dream.....I touch my face. its bloody, I dont remember falling or anything after me and prod went downstairs.

roc: what happened? are you alright?

I look at prod. and then at roc.

me: im fine, I fell and prod helped me

roc: but it doesn't look like you-

me: its okay...

roc and I walk home. he looks worried.

me: roc you okay?

roc: yea im fine. I have to tell you something....

me: what is it?

roc: never mind..

we just keep walking. I look at the ground. a group of girls spots us and runs over to roc. I look at him as he doesnt even try to get back to me so I just walk away. I walk home, and unlock the door. I walk inside.

ray: you okay?

me: maybe...

ray: is it roc?

me: maybe...

ray: sit down and tell me about it.

I sit next to ray and look at him. He's here for me. hes my friend.

me: roc is so....so.....so....Ughhhh!!! Every time I think he actually has feelings for me he does it again! I would've been better off with prod being beaten like a slave all the time.

ray: you're not serious are you?

me: yes I am..

ray: are you still attracted to prod??

me: I-I-I don't quite know.. I had such a weird dream though, and he was in it.

ray: what was your dream about?

me: I was with prod and he treated me like he used to..

ray: then stay away from him for a while..

me: ray I can't.

ray: then you obviously have feelings for him....

me: ugh I dont know..

roc and Prince walks inside as I lay my head on rays shoulder. Prince looks at me. we get a little eye contact until roc steps in front of him.

roc: I'm sorry...

me: whatever...

roc: can I talk to you alone.

I get up from the couch and we walk to the kitchen. he stands in front of me with a smile. he grabs my shoulders and pulls me forward with a kiss. he caught me by surprise. it's like nothing I had before. time stopped, nothing moved. but my heart raced. all I can do is stare. his eyes are closed but I know he feels my stare burning through his eyelids. he just kisses me firmer and holds my shoulders tighter. my wall fell, I just gave in and close my eyes. he pulls back, still holdong my shoulders. I open my eyes to look at him.

roc: will you be my girlfriend?

me: I-I-I can't right now. It's complicated right now...

roc: oh okay...

he walks out of the kitchen.