Can't hurt her ;

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Rayan .

I sat there never going to sleep as i heard her soft snores . I had to figure out the rest of this poem .. something soon came to mind as i began writing . 

dont ever fucking lie to me

my mind would never remain the same

knowing that your okay always keeps me sane

never understood why you fell for a nigga like me

you'll deny it but soon youll see

your my everything

if i die i dont wanna be awoken

I understand that if i awake , ill keep you broken

Not gonna lie i cried , and i know im a boy and they usually don't , i did and im not afraid to admit it im fighting for her because she's all i want .. i stopped thinking of the possibilities as justice walked out of the bathroom with my tie die shirt on and some leggings . 

Justice - i didnt know you kept my pairs of leggings i always use to leave here ?

Me - yea , i always have .

Justice - thats sweet of you .

Me - its the little things that mean the most .

justice - yea thats true ..

Me - so you wanna go home now or stay ..

justice - if i leave can keep the shirt ?

Me - yes justice .

She got really happy after i said that , i guess it truly is the little things that couunt . she hopped off the end of the couch she was sitting on and began gathering her things and skipping to the car as i soon walked out behind her , not forgetting to put on my house alarm .

As soon as i got into the car good , my phone rings and ashley appears on the screen . I didnt answer tho , shes my ex and im in the presence of justice  and i think im in love with her .

Justice 💍

Rayan was everything i wanted . from the weirdness to the tallness , and the realness 😍 it was all sexy to me and im not sure he knew it . we sat in the car as i assumed it was only a matter of minutes until we pulled up to me and Ajahs house , i flipped on the radio and then selfish by pnb rock started to blair through the speakers considering i turned the volume up. I started singing along to pnb and i soon heard another voice .  It was rayans .

Pnb rock - selfish .

I want you all to myself
You don't need nobody else
I want you all to myself
I swear yeah
Oh yea
Yea
Yea
Yea

I'm selfish
I want you all to myself
I swear
You don't need nobody else
I swear
I want you all to myself
Because I'm selfish, yea
I want you All to myself
I swear
You don't need nobody else
I swear
I want you all to myself
I swear I'm selfish
I want you all to myself
I swear
You don't need nobody else
I swear
I want you all to myself
Because I'm selfish yea
I want you all to myself
I swear
You don't need nobody else
I want you all to myself

Now that I gotcha
Aye girl
I ain't gon play witchu
Because there's alot of things
That I wanna say to you
Girl you know you the shit
Balanciagas on ya kicks
Niggas all on ya dick
But we ain't gon trip
Cause I'm not ready for no commitments
Nah, nah
But I swear I hate seein you with them
Yea, yea
And I know you ain't trynna control me
And I know your tired of bein lonely
I can't help how I feel
I'm just keepin it real
They can't have you girl

Because I'm selfish
Want you all to myself
I swear
You don't need nobody else
I swear
I want you all to myself
Because I'm selfish, yea
I want you all to myself
I swear
You don't need nobody else
I Swear
I want you all to myself
I swear I'm selfish
I want you all to myself
I swear
You don't need nobody else
I swear
I want you all to myself
Because I'm selfish yea
I want you all to myself
I swear
You don't need nobody else
I want you all to myself

Shawty I'm selfish
Can't help it
You know I get stuck when you
Come around
And them niggas be sick cause we
Be on some shit
Yeah they know I'm gon
Hold it down
Pull up in da whip
Tell you how I been witcho friends
We gon go to my crib
Have my chef cook up a dinner
Girl you know you fuckin with a winner
I ain't nothing like these things I swear
Name a place I could take you there
Id do anything to make you laugh
And you can have anything just ask
But just know that I'm selfish
And I swear I can't help it
But its all for you
Yea its all for you

I'm selfish
I want you all to myself
I swear
You don't need nobody else
I swear
I want you all to myself
Because I'm selfish yea
Yeh
I want you'll to myself
I swear
You don't need nobody else
I swear
I want you all to myself I swear
I'm selfish yeh yeh
I want you all to myself
I swear
You don't need nobody else
I swear
I want you all to myself
Because I'm selfish yea
I want you all to myself
I swear
You don't need nobody else
I want you all to myself

When the song ended me and rayan look at eachother and laughed , but i looked away after a certain point of time . I reminded rayan that we go to school tomorrow and to make sure he had written his half of the poem . At this time it was only 9:45 and Ajah was sleep so i decided to write in the bath .

long ago , friends was our title

now we are apart

and it hurts alittle

i want him to myself

shit jus complicated

i asked myself

what if we dated .

he's my heart

and yet our hearts

are so far apart .

I finished the little words i had finished writing as i heard Ajah yell "we need milk , im going to the store . want anything ?" I responded with pick me up some chips , as it got quiet again after she left . my mind traveled to rayan .

i want him , im in love with him .