The Moon and Her Sun

Seven: The Truth That Set Him Free

Whenever I like someone it's always like the five stages of grief.

First stage is denying that I like him. Saying that I don't know who the heck he is. Also by asking who he is.

I then get angry at the guy I like. Mad at him being so likable. Mad that I fell for him. Mad at the fact of the possibility that we won't be together.

I don't tend to bargain much, but when I do I limit myself to him. I set up boundaries; I put up walls between us. Also, I don't like to annoy him.

After bargaining on setting up boundaries a part of me gets depressed. That no matter what I do I won't have a relationship with him.

Which then leads to acceptance. Accepting that I like him. That this so called "relationship" would never happen. That it would only be a one-sided love.

Well shockingly I didn't go through any of the stages with Ciro. Well except for denial and anger because let's face it I didn't want to make it obvious.

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Carla isnt here at school today because shes sick. I know shes lying because when I called her she answered with a cough then said hey. So today I guess Ill be eating lunch by myself.

Ive never liked being by myself. It just makes me feel like a loser. Except I just remembered that I do know someone who would like to hang out with me.

He sits underneath our schools famous apple tree. Where most of the hook ups take place. He sits underneath the shaded tree with his knees pointing up to the sky and his book laying on them. His book blocking my face, so he cant see me coming.

I finally walk over to him. "Hey stranger." I say.

"Oh hey." Ciro says "I didnt see you there."

"Yeah I thought I would give you a pleasant surprise." I smiled at him.

"Well I especially like this one." He tells me "Arent you going to sit down."

"Yes" I set my bag down and sit right next to him. My shoulder touching his. "What are you reading?"

"The scene that we are supposed to be doing." Ciro answers. Taking a bite out of his sandwich.

Once he takes the bite, he holds it in one hand and offers it to me. "Want some?"

I shake my head "No thanks."

He takes another bite of his sandwich. He puts his hand over his mouth "Can I ask you something?"

"Sure." I answer.

"Why dont you eat?" He swallows the piece he just ate and he uncovers his mouth. "Are you anorexic or something? Do you not like food or something?" He says it in a joking matter.

I dont know what should I do? To tell or not to tell? Should I finally open up to him? Or should I just keep it to myself?

I sigh and shrug my shoulders." I dont think you can handle it." I take my water bottle out of my bag and drink only a little.

"Please I know Ive only known you for about a week and weve already been on our first date, so can you just tell me. Please."

"Are you sure? Cause when I tell you cant tell anyone. If you do, Ill kill you." I said it in a serious tone.

"So be it." Closing the book and sitting up so he can make eye contact with me. "What is it?"

I sigh one last time before I tell him." I have stage two Esophageal cancer. When I was diagnosed the doctors plan on giving me a g-tube. Its a tube that helps me eat. I dont wear it at school, but only at home.

"I do have a button to where I connect it." I lift my shirt and show him my button. It was only for five seconds that I showed him, then I put my shirt down. "So youre the only one at this school who knows. Not even Carla knows, so dont tell her or anyone because I dont want to get treated differently".

He doesnt make eye contact with me "Well, I understand if you dont want to date me." I tell him.

He shakes his head. "No, No its not that. I just knew there was something about you."

"What do you mean?" I ask him.

"Yeah I mean I know there was something that I liked about you."

I scoffed at his stupid remark. "So you like dying girls?"

"No its not that I like dying girl. I mean I do, heck, I like you a lot. Its just the way you dont let anything get in your way. I mean heck you dont stop going to school. Your unique and I think your uniqueness makes you beautiful."

I blush. I dont know what I want to do now. I dont know whether I should deny all the things he is saying. Or to be angry at him for making me fall in love with his words.

Maybe I should try something new, accepting the fact that he likes me. That I like him back.

"So what? You still want to go out with me?" I say as my voice breaks at the last words.

"I dont just want to date you. I want to be yours."

"Then I guess you are mine." I say I smile. "I guess youre my" I gulp before I say the last sentence "boyfriend."

Ciro smiles and is filled with joy. "Great. I can finally do this."

His face comes towards mine. His lips brush against mine. Both of his hands touching my cheek. Caught up in the moment I realize my eyes are still open.

I then close my eyes and put my hand on his shoulder. I kiss him back this time enjoying it.

The sensation Im getting from his lips is such a sensation that my perfect nightmares couldnt compare to this moment.

The bell rings as we are still kissing each other. He pulls away first and I see a grin on his face. "Well we cant be late to class mi amor."

Ciro kisses my cheek. I thought he was going to kiss me again, but I thought wrong. He gets up off the ground and reaches his hand out to help me up. "Well."

I grab his hand and got my bag with me. He doesnt let go of my hand and grabs both of our bags, along with his book. We then walk to class.

Stupid bell. I didnt have to get saved this time. I then think again to myself. Its fine hes mine now. There will be more kissing when the time comes. And maybe even more than kissing.