Painful Poems

Secret

My life is made of one big lie

Can't even hold a tear in my eye

My tears roll because everything you did

Why couldn't I just be a normal little kid

Two years old with sexual experience wasn't my plan

Could have been a father don't you understand

For the longest everything was just one big secret to you

But eventually I just didn't know what I was going to do

I'm bisexual because I'm afraid to be raped

All I want to do is make a secret escape

Fantasies of girls I can't take away

I want to do more than just play

I want to feel her body more than any other

I can't lie if I have sex we'll love eachother

It's not as easy as what you think

Make her cheeks turn a pretty pink

I think I'm stuck in a body I don't feel

My feelings for people are honestly real

I just want to hold someone every night

Kiss them when they see the bright sunlight

My body is a crazy operation that can't be controlled

The way I feel comes from the deep of my very soul

I have no idea whether the way I am will ever work

But any girl I see won't ever call me a mean jerk