Painful Poems

Remember

I saw the blood and all the tears

You were the one that made my fears

I believed I was a dog that belonged in a cage

They told me to grow up and try to act my age

But I couldn't because you raped me and made me feel like an adult

It was more than what they call theft, murder, or assault

You took what I had and always wanted for me

I look in the mirror and Mieesha isn't who I see

I see you with your body on top of me

Controlling me to be someone I don't want to be

I look like I'll never be free from what you did to me

Why did you have to hurt me the way you did

Why couldn't I just be your little loving kid

Did you not want me around

Now patters of blood is a new sound

I cut remembering what you did

I'll never have the good memories of being a kid

You took my childhood like I was nothing

But I know now that I'm more than something

I'm trying to be better and stronger than what you made me

I'm going to prove to you that you can't make me be something I don't want to be

Your a selfish guy that I'll never see as a dad

All you ever did was make me cry and always get mad

You called me mean names like I was trash

It was like I was a some scar or a rash

You wanted me gone but you didn't know how

I look back at everything and all I can say is wow

Was I never good enough for you?

What was a little girl like me suppose to do?

Did I not please you the way you always wanted and got?

You act like what you did is something I forgot...

But no it stays in my head every single day

Those flashbacks and nightmares are always in my way

But what do you have to say...

You'll never say sorry or I should have been there

Because remember you never cared...