Things To Do Before I Die

4

I'm getting wheeled back up to my room, my bed gets pushed through the recovery room halls. I see the woman who came running down the hallway with a man with a bandaged up leg and the other leg missing. I turn my head back to see Lane staring at me with his dark blue ocean coloured eyes. He looks away and Gwen moves her head forward and waves her little hand connected to a drip to me. "Are you feeling ok?" she says looking down at me.

As the nurse pushes my bed through the exit doors and my mum follows I reply "Uh, I guess I feel better".

My bed rolls across the floor of the hospital, making that noise that makes you want to cringe your face all up. There is doctors walking up and down the operating floor, some run faster than ever and others are just strolling. "I can walk you know?" I say to the nurse who goes to push the elevator button.

"It's just a safety precaution, we don't want you to waste your energy walking around" She says while tapping her hand on the back on my bed.

The nurse pushes my bed into the elevator, going over a bump which shakes the bed. I sigh and roll my fingers while my mum goes to push the up buttons in the elevator to take me to my floor. "Do you have her results from the endoscopy yet? I would like to know if Dr. Jacobson has an action plan yet?" my mum exclaims to the nurse.

"I can't tell you that ma'am. Dr. Jacobson will talk to you later about the results" the nurse says while fixing her dark green coloured scrubs.

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My ears blow through the wind as I glide through the skies of London in a hot air balloon. The long hair I don't have blows to the North and my eyes blink rapidly through the fast wind being pushed towards me. "This is incredible" I shout loudly so all of London can hear.

I see the London eye in the distance, along with Big Ben and they look so beautiful. Just as I have always imagined. I hold my arms out and let them blow through the wind, my arm hairs stick up and goose bumps appear on my arm. This must be what it feels like to have adrenalin. The trees blow swiftly through the wind below and the sky is even bluer when you're in it. Beneath me I see children and adults pointing at the hot air balloon, jumping up and down. I felt the same when I saw a hot air balloon.

The first time I saw one was when I was little about 7 and I had headed down to Melbourne with my mum and my dad. It was a beautiful balloon, bright red, aqua and a lovely purple that just burst in the sky.

The balloon lowered through the sky, the trees grew closer and the people looked bigger. This little girl waved at me and she looked like me when I saw a hot air balloon, amazed. I felt free in the sky, I felt like I was free from all the hospitals and the tubes people kept poking into me. This is what it feels like to be alive and a person.

The balloon gets even closer to the ground and the grass gets greener and the sky goes less blue as I look up. The sky is clear and beautiful as we glide down back to the land but it goes less blue. I feel the wind push my hair up and it feels amazing. It really clears your head, being up here in the sky and I feel so much better, I feel less cancerous.

As we reach the ground the hot air balloon slowly drops and the feel of greatness starts to fade away. Everything goes the same again as the hot air balloon jolts to the ground. Light sky, green almost deep green grass and I'm still that cancerous girl. Someone is standing behind me and they put their hand on my hips and hold me in a tight hug. I go to turn around and I see a tall guy with a blurry face and I bury my face in his dark green shirt, which blends in with the grass. I look up again and...

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"Sweetie, time to wake up!" my mum chimes in.

How long had I been dreaming? Was I out for a while?

 "Sweetie, Dr. Jacobson is here to see you" my mum says.

I look up, confused. I stare into Dr. Jacobson's eyes, wondering, was what I just saw, only a dream? I really thought like I was on that hot air balloon, and who on Earth was that guy on the balloon ride? "Why are you here Dr. Jacobson? Is everything all right?" I ask.

The sun coming through the window fades away and the room darkens. "I think you should sit down Mrs Andrews" Dr. Jacobson says pulling a chair up next to my hospital bed.

I sit up in my bed and pull my covers up to my hips. My dad comes to enter the room with his bag on his shoulder. "Dr. Jacobson, what a surprise. What's going on? Something important?" my dad asks.

I look at my dad and then at my mum. "Please sit Mr. Andrews, I have some news" Dr. Jacobson reports anxiously.

My dad sits on the end of my bed holding my mums hand and Dr. Jacobson begins. "Ok. I'm going to tell you something you probably don't want to hear. Madeline's cancer hasn't gotten better since her last endoscopy and scan. The cancer has now spread from the start of the small intestine, the jejunum to the transverse colon."

Oh hey again readers, if anyone actually is reading this. Sorry for the late update, it was exactly a month late. Whoops? I had a lot of writers block so it took longer for me to update this.

Anyway, who liked the new chapter? Is it any good? I thought I might add in some more drama because well drama is good right? Also I have an obsession with Grey's Anatomy which took up my writing time. What's your obsession right now?

-Lily xo