Nagito X Reader: Creating A New Hope (Sequel!)

Deepest Darkest Depths of Despair

***********Nagito POV***********

I rushed to the islands mini Hospital carrying f/n in my arms. Panting I start running out of breath.
No... No I can't stop...
She started to get hot in my arms. Has she got a fever?
Quickly I bang on the Nurses door "Open Up! Open Up Now!!!".
Nothing Happens.... Where are they, Suddenly I hear a familiar voice behind me "Nagito....?".
My head shot around and Mikan face came into view, "Mikan...?" My voice stutters she probably hates me but I need to get help for f/n "please... Please help her, if anyone can you can!".
Mikan stares at me still in disbelief that I am here. She comes up to me and suddenly she slaps me, hard in the face. Then opens the door and said "Look, Im doing this for her. Not for you. The others told me what happened and what traumer you put her through.... Don't think that won't affect her. I don't even understand why she did that for you. You done nothing but hurt her, and I hope you know that and that you don't deserve her and you never will. You should be glad you have ultimate luck, cause that was the only reason you are with her...".
Mikan opened the door, I didn't care what she thought about me, my main concern right now was her.
I place f/n on a bed and watch Mikan get some tablets and thermometer. She walks over and tests l/n temperature and the mumbles.
"Whats wrong!" I shout standing up and lead in towards her.
"She seems to have a high fever. Im not sure of the causes so far....".
"What could have happened!!! Is she going to be ok." I feel my heartbeat beating fast. My blood gets hotter... i start breathing heavily... no... Unconciously I hug myself trying to calm myself down.

"I don't want her to go... Is this my bad luck. Is it my fault... no...f/n no... Dont you dare leave me!" I say myself. I start rocking back and forth mumbling "no...no...No...".
I entered my own little world full of darkness. No hope... their was no hope at all. Just the Deepest Darkest Depths of Despair.... All alone. Cold.. and afraid. Why... why do I feel like this... I don't want to think. The more I think the worst it gets. Why... arh yes This is despair. The darkest depths of Despair which Junko should me.....

I feel a weird sensation in my stomach... what is this, suddenly the world came rushing back to me and Mikan was right in front of me.
"GET OUT!!! SHE DOESNT NEED A CRAZY LUNATIC LAUGHING BESIDE HER!"
I was forced outside. I sit down, whar have I done... If only I had killed Junko when I had the chance, If only.... None of this wouldn't have happened. We wouldnt have become ultimate despair.... I all my fault. I lift my 'Junko's' arm up and stare at it. Is despair really the only way forward?
Why... I lean into her arm. Its all your fault Junko... it's all your fault.