Kidnapped by the Sidemen

. T W E L V E / Sadness .

/ Hi again, it's me. Hah. Sorry I had to. Hey guys! I'm back with another chapter for you! I've been wanting to write a new chapter for a few days but it's my finals week for this semester and I'm vv busy.❤️ but I love you guys!! Message me if you need❤️ \

*Skylar's POV*

"I'm sorry Simon.."

"Skylar please!" Simon smacked his head against the door.

"Why didn't you just let me die..?" I squealed.

"Skylar. Don't ask that. You know why, We love you. Please don't end your life over this. You're going to get better and I know that sounds cliche, but If I can, you can.." He sighed.

I stared at the door.

"You guys can't love me if you don't know me!" I cried

"Skylar.." He sighed

'If I can, you can.'

Looking down at my hands I felt a major feeling of guilt flood over me. I stood and unlocked the door, opening it, I fell into Simon's arms.

"I'm sorry.. I got into my head.." I sobbed into his chest, grabbing his sweater tightly.

He held me closer.

"Shh.. Skylar. It's okay hun" He kissed my head

"Sky-Skylar.. You okay..?" Josh asked, shaking.

"No, but are you? I'm so sorry i ruined your room, I'm prone to ruining things." I said, looking over at him.

"Don't worry about it.. Just- We'll protect you from now on. Okay?" He stuttered.

I let go of Simon and stumbled over to Josh, pulling him into a hug, His shaking stopped but I heard soft cries from him.

"Josh calm down I'll be okay...." I lied to make him feel better.

"Please don't hurt yourself..." He cried out, I looked around at everyone. Tobi, JJ, Ethan and Vikk were staring at us. Simon stood behind us, leaning against a wall.

"I- I won't Joshy.." I stumbled to talk.

"We love you..." Tobi spoke.

"I love you guys too.. I'm sorry for walking into your home and ruining your lives.." I put my head into Josh's hair, Rocking him.

"You didn't do anything but make our lives Brighter Skylar.." Simon said lovingly.

"How?" I asked

"Have you not seen how happy you make us all? Your smile makes us smile and when you're sad we all are too. You made us all happier than we have been lately. Please, don't say you ruined anything when all you did was make it better." Simon smiled, pain in his eyes.

The boys huddled around Josh and I.

"I love you guys.." I mumbled.

"We all love you too Skylar." Simon kissed my head.

Josh let go of me and smiled weakly at us all.

"I'm okay." He wiped his face.

"I've never seen any of you cry before up until yesterday." I winced in pain.

"Well seeing someone in this much god damn pain hurts us too Love." Simon put his arm around my shoulder.

"I don't wanna make you guys sad.." I looked at my feet and walked over to Simon's room, sitting on my side of the bed, I grabbed my laptop.

I typed my password in, saw the boys on my screen and smiled.

It's weird I'm basically living with them now.. It's amazing but I feel like a huge burden to them.