04.54am g.d.

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omg i'm updating only cause my bestie convinced me to

*a couple days later*

gray hasn't talked to me in two days and i have absolute no clue why. all we did was kiss. i'm sure with his looks he has kissed many girls before. i sat in my room and just starred out at the skyline just thinking. what if you need answers me back.
maybe he'll forget about me. then it's like nothing would've happened.
maybe i should run away.
no that's crazy. but i've done it before, look where i am now.
i only did that because my aunt wanted me to.
brynn, you need to stop thinking these things. when dad died you did this and you thought your way into running for good, but look, your in this big beautiful house with an awesome aunt and a boyfri-
no.
grayson is not your boyfriend.
what if you was though. what if i fall in love with him.
yes you want to.
i can't get to close.
oh come on, why not?
he reminds me of someone.
duh, he has a twin brother.
no not his twin brother.
austin?
yes of course.
how do you feel that your whole family is up there now?
alone.
yours surrounded by people you idiot.
no. i feel lonely, doesn't mean i'm physically alone.
okie dokie then.

waking up to grayson shaking me was sure a surprise.
"grayson?" i hated how my voice sounded. deep and rough. i sounded like a man. like grayson hehe.
"yup it's me. sorry i haven't been responding to your messages, my phone broke once again. I shrug.
"it's fine."
"lie. girls always say their fine but they really aren't." i wonder who he got that from the internet?
"ok. you got me."

oh hi