Unacceptance

Do it again

Tammy's POV

It was 12 minutes after school and I waited outside for Chris so we can go back to his house.

"What took you so long?" I said blocking the sun with my hands.

"I had to use the restroom. I'm sorry."

We walked to his place a couple blocks down and this time his mom wasn't home.

"Where your mom go?"

"I don't know but she usually comes back late."

"Well let's get started on what you're gonna wear to this dance"

I walked to his closet to try and find something decent for him to wear. Tossing around clothes leaving his room in a mess I found a Plain Black Tee.

"Ooo. Do you have any paint?"

"Yeah, its in the closet top shelf"

I grabbed the paint and dipped my hand in the red. I hung the shirt on the wall with tape and whacked as hard as i could.

"Hey watch my walls!"

"Shush Im working magic."

I started whacking different colors and soon the shirt looked pretty dope. I got the white paint and wrote "Steeze" on it. Since the paint was wet it started dripping but I dried it before it could drip off the shirt.

"Let that dry and then try it on"

"That looks so-

"COOL I KNOW!"

"look at your hands" he laughed. "You're very creative"

"Thank you, I try. Now we need to find you some pants to go with that. Maybe joggers?"

"Um sure... but shouldn't we start on our history project?"

"You can handle that yourself while I work on your clothes."

"I have this feeling you're trying to make that young man jealous?"

"With you? yeah right.. you're just a project."

Chris POV

After she said that my heart shattered. It was a moment of silence.

"Chris, I didn't mean it like that."

"I think you should leave."

"Chris, I'm sorry"

"No, its fine you really should leave though. Thanks Tam, i'll try the shirt later."

"Chris, I said I was sorry."

"Please. I don't want you to be my friend if you can't accept me for me and I surely don't want any sympathy from nobody."

I walked to my front door and opened it for her. She looked at me and left with a sad look. I closed my door and walked to my room.

-

It was 8 o'clock at night and I was laying in bed staring at the shirt Tammy made for me. All I wanted to know was why she so obsessed with me looking good. I can look good. The dance isn't until next week Friday. I think. Thats the issue though. If she's not willing to go with me then I don't want to go at all. Especially if im looking like a fool.

Tick Tick Cack

I heard little pebbles hitting my window. I looked out and saw Tamera.

"Can't keep me out here forever bud!" she said with her arms out.

I walked downstairs and let her through the door walking back to my room and laying in my bed. I threw the covers over my head at the words she was saying.

"Chris, what I really meant was that.. if im going to get someone jealous its going to be you. Wait- no like I mean im not going to use you. Period. Not as in a sense where you're not my type. Just understand that the way you took it wasn't the way I meant. Its just no need to get him jealous. And I'll even prove it. You don't have to wear the shirt or even go with me. You can wear your corny clothes and we can just stay here and work on history and math."

I didn't move.

Tammy's POV

He didn't move. God why am I so stupid? It's bad enough this kid is going through hell!

"Chris... do you hear me?"

I moved closer and he pulled back the covers and I seen he was crying.

"Don't cry. I'm sorry . I swear ."

He wiped his eyes and went to the bathroom and got some tissue for his face.

"You're fine." he finally said. "It's really not a big deal. I rather stay home anyway, I have homework to do. Friday nights is when I go down to the graveyard to see my dad. I can't miss that, I knew that. Just wanted to see what it was like to have friends, ya know."

He smiled and I promise every part of me broke.

"You hungry?"

"No im fine. Thanks and Im sorry.. Ima just go"

"I'll walk you."

"Thanks"

On my way home I was so stuck on Chris. I didn't mean to hurt him and you can tell he wasn't sensitive. He really held in a lot.

I heard laughing in the distance and looked up and seen Johnny and some girl.

"It was really insane........Tammy?"

I kept walking.

"Now wait a minute Tamera, I know you hear me."

He left the girl behind and walked up to me.

"What do you want?"

"What's with the attitudeeee?" he said smoothly.

"What do you want?"

"Where you coming from?"

"A friend house. Why?"

"Why didn't you call me?"

"Who's she?"

He looked at her and rolled his eyes.

"She's a nobody. She boring. Jealous?"

"Nah, I got a man."

"You have a man? yeah right. You know I'm the only man for you girl."

"Haa... no."

I started to walk away.

"Alright. Show me this man. That's the house you coming from?"

"Yes matter of fact. He's way better then you. 10 FOLD!"

"No body better then johnny. He go to our school? Bring him to lunch tomorrow."

"Fine! He'll be there!"

I walked away mad as hell but then I realized I really messed up. Chris hates me right now. We aren't even dating... where am I going to find a boyfriend?"