just a fan ; grayson dolan

79

"So are you finally going to tell me what happened last month?" Emily asked while popping popcorn for our movie night

Thinking back on the last month gives me a massive headache. It all started after a show one day. Grayson, Ethan and I were invited to a company party, Fans we're also able to go. And of course the little bitch brittany just had to come. Someone spiked the punch and Grayson got drunk, and twenty minutes later i found brittany on top of him kissing him.

So it was over for me

I didn't even cry, i wasn't even sad because for some reason i saw it coming. And after all the chances i gave him, it had to end

It caused me real pain

But isn't that a sign?

I didn't even care i gave up

So obviously he wasn't the one

Now i don't focus on boys, i left the tour and haven't talked to grayson since. I continue making youtube videos

The fans are still very confused because i basically just picked up and left, no explanation

So here i am, in Los Angeles with my best friend while my ex is about to go on international tour

"It's not even worth it. He's not worth it. Saying his name is a waste of words. He doesn't exist to me anymore. That part of my life is my past, and i forgot about it all already" i paused

"He is not the Grayson Dolan i knew, the old guy is gone. I don't know who Grayson Dolan is anymore" i finish

***

:(((((((

i'm having major boy troubles if anyone wants to hear about it dm me