Living with BTS

Chapter 13

Continued from Chapter 12.

We all agreed going to the beach. The last time I went to a beach, was when my parents were here with me..
The boys thought it would be good to get some fresh scenery. We all stay cooped up in the condo because if we don't, girls from every corner around us, will chase the boys until they no longer have the air to breathe. I am currently packing my beach bag with towels, snacks, water bottles, and a large box to collect sea shells. "You ready?" Jimin asks while he leans on my doorframe. I take one last look at everything and contemplate if I really need all the items I've packed. "Uhh.. sure." I finally speak after a long moment of silence. Did I mention things have been kind of off, lately? When I'm around, he acts like I've done something to him. We were just fine a while ago, but then something switched. Like his personality took a ride on a slippery slope. I don't know.. maybe I'm just over thinking the whole situation.. but I think for now I'll just let things be. I'll treat him how he treats me. But why is my heart thinking otherwise...

At the beach.

"Yaaah! Jungkookie ate all the cookies!" V yelled while holding his heart. "I asked you if you wanted any. What did you say? No. So go cry over there with the birds." Kookie snapped back. We all stared off into the ocean, but I could see Namjoon holding back his laughter, and jin looking at them disapprovingly. "All you boys ever do is fight over food." Jin said shaking his head. Both Kookie and V looked at him viciously. "All you ever do is eat." V shot back, snatching a sandwich and getting up from the blanket. "Now if you'll excuse me, I'll be thinking about life, and taking soulful pictures." He explained, showing off his box smile before turning around, and walking away. "Where's Jimin?" Suga asked while looking around. I looked around also, and finally spotted him at the dock. He was sitting down, uncomfortably sitting straight, and staring off into space. "He looks off." I said, examining the way he was seated. "Do you want me to go see what's wrong with him?" Jungkook asked, taking his earbuds out. "Yaaah! Let her do it, it's better that way. It's like in the movies." J hope explained, starring off into the sky like he could see the whole thing being played out. I raised an eyebrow at him, hoping he'd catch onto the questionable vibe I'm giving off. "Just go." Suga said, shooing me off, and getting ready to take my spot. I shook my head at his poor manners. "Really?" Was all I asked. He shooed me off again, and I slapped his hand. "Hey! That was rude!" He yelled, holding onto his hand. I rolled my eyes, and walked off.
About halfway there, I felt like this was a bad idea. I mean.. I'm literally 5 steps away from him. Do you think he even knows I'm here? I quietly take a few steps back, while checking to see if there's anything behind me. "What do you want?" His low, raspy voice called out. I froze. Like literally, froze. I felt the words in my  throat, but they felt stuck. "Uh.." was all I managed to get out. "Uhh.. what?" He asked, turning his head to look at me. "Uh.. th.. the boys wanted to know if you're okay, so I came to check up on you." I blurted out. Not really noticing I screamed my response until afterwards. His face looked puzzled. "I think the question is are you okay?" He asked, moving his head with the last 3 words. I nodded, not trying to show any emotions. He turned back around to face the ocean. "What is going on between us?" I thought to myself. His head looked to the side, and then turned back to the ocean. Believe me when I wanted to ask what his problem was. I turned on my heel, and started making my way back to the beach. "Don't bother me again." He stated. I stopped in my tracks, feeling my heart ache. What did I do? Was it something I said? "What is your problem, Jimin?" I asked, walking back towards him. He threw his head back in annoyance. "We were just fine not too long ago, and now you're acting like a dick." I stated. "Look, I just don't want you anymore. I thought I did, but after a good minute, I thought different." He said. Still not once, looking at me. I didn't realize I was crying until my tears hit my chest. "Wow.. you watched my heart get crushed, Jimin. I ran to you because I trusted you. You comforted me, when I was in need of someone. You're fucking pathetic." I spat. How could he? Why? I wanted to ask him why his thoughts all of a sudden change. It was a long moment of silence between us. "Why..?" I asked, hearing my voice crack. The tears kept flowing right out of my eyes. I really felt that if someone would've said "cry me a river" I really could've. "Will you just leave me the hell alone? I said I don't want you anymore. Leave." He demanded. With every word he said, my heart sank even more. I backed away from him slowly. When I turn around, it will be the last time, or last conversation I've had with him for a whole minute. And the reason I say that is because he'll never look at me, or talk to me again. Why Jimin? Why would you just leave like that..?
I officially made it back to the boys. They all asked what happened, but I knew if I spoke, I would burst out into tears. So I stayed quiet. "Are you okay?" Suga asked. I nodded my head, indicating a no. He let out a sigh, and pulled me in for a hug. As soon as my face hit his shoulder. The river of tears just poured out of me. "Shh.. it will be okay." Suga stated, rubbing my back. I was too busy crying that I didn't notice the boys, including V, left to go see what happened with Jimin. I closed my eyes, trying to collect my thoughts, and calm down. "Do you want to talk about it?" Suga asked. I stared at the ocean, watching the waves hit the shore. "Have you ever had your heartbroken before?" I asked, collecting some sand, and observing it. He chuckled to himself, and grabbed some sand also. "It was the worst." He started. "The boys knew that she was cheating, but they didn't know how to tell me. So I was in a phony relationship for 1 whole year. Looking back at it, I realize bits and pieces where her excuses didn't add up. Man was I stupid back then. But after awhile, I healed. My heart was pulling itself back together on it's own. Believe me when I say time heals everything. And believe me when I say that more heartbreaks will come your way. And if you really love the person, they get even harder. But you'll be okay. You're beautiful, and very independent. You deserve nothing but happiness. One day, it will come. Just be patient. All good things come to those who wait." He finished, smiling towards me. I smiled back, and returning my attention to the ocean. "Jimin is really stupid for letting you go." Suga muttered. I wasn't sure if he was supposed to let me hear that or not, so I ignored it, and kept playing with the sand. "Are you feeling better now?" He asked. "Like you said, I'll be okay." I said, smiling. He pulled me in for another hug, and I gladly hugged him back. "Thank you." I muttered. I felt him nodding his head in a yes motion. "Hey, let's get back to the house. There's supposed to be a storm." Jungkook said, collecting his items. I helped pack everything up, and sat in the very front, far away from Jimin. It was the most uncomfortable ride in my life. I could literally feel his eyes piercing my soul. Once we reached home, he was the first to get out. The boys followed, but Suga and Namjoon stayed behind to help me get everything out. Once inside, everyone scattered to their rooms to take a shower. I was satisfied when I felt the steam from the water wrap around my little body. I played my playlist and undressed myself.

I guess I will be okay.. in time.
I just want to know why Jimin switched up so fast..

Hey guys, please don't hate me. School has been hella hectic.
I don't like excuses, but trust me when I say Im sorry. I hope y'all enjoy!