A Kiss Goodnight (Newtmas au)

I Have To Tell You Something Thomas

Newt's POV

I opened my eyes as light streamed into my bedroom but I could tell that it was cold outside. Even when the heating is normal in my house I can always tell if it's going to be hot or cold, usually just by looking at the light. Enough about the light. Today was a big day for me. I was going to tell Thomas something. Something I've been waiting so long to tell him. I am gay. I've never been so nervous. I've known that I'm a raging homosexual teenager for about two years but I haven't told anyone. Today is going to be the day. I practised my lines while pacing around my room, "Thomas we've been friends for just over a year now and I figured I'd tell you that I'm gay. Gay as you can get." I said to myself. "Maybe not the 'gay as you can get' that makes me sound overly confident." I sounded insane but I didn't care. I told Thomas that I wanted to meet him at 12 which gives me an hour to prepare.

I picked out a grey t-shirt that had the words 'It's better to be hated for who you are than be loved for what you're not' printed in red. I found it fitting. I also wore dark denim jeans and black trainers with a green hoodie over the top with a dark grey beanie. I checked my hair in the mirror and set off shouting goodbye to my parents as I went. I asked Thomas to meet me by the lake which was only a ten minute walk. He was in my sight when I just froze. I backed away and hid behind a wall. My heart racing and my breathing speeding I took a deep breath. In for four seconds, held for seven and out for eight then I repeated it. I didn't want to cower any more. I walked up to him, smiled and sat down on the bench he was on. "Thomas I have to tell you something." I started, my hands starting to shake uncontrollably.
"What is it?" He asked sympathetically, awaiting my answer.
"I've never told anyone this before. It's so hard to say." My voice started to quiver in fear and Thomas's face filled with concern. I took another deep breath in "I....am.....gay." I said. I looked at the ground waiting for a response from Thomas "Thank you." He said. I looked at him with a face of confusion. "Thank you that I'm the first person you told. Congrats on building up the courage to tell me. You're strong and I will always support you." He finished his speech by putting his arm over my shoulder. "Thank you." I said quietly and smiled.

I'm so sorry this chapter is short