We Made It- Mashton

Chapter six

Ashton's pov

Today I just don't want to do anything I mean like I really don't want to do anything, I barely got any sleep AGAIN and no not because of the stupid tour bus, because of stupid nightmares, nightmares about Michael knowing that I like him and ergh..it just turned awful, I hope he never looks at me the way he looked at me in that nightmare. I grabbed my phone to check the time 8.07am. I groaned, way too early for someone who has barely slept in 48 hours. though I knew I needed to show my face after yesterday and to apologise for being a dick.

I stretched my arms and got out of my bunk and made my way to the kitchen, I needed some damn ass coffee. Still in my own world, not thinking anyone was in here "still in dick mode?" I heard a voice say from behind, I turned around to be faced with Michael who just chuckled, making my heart flutter "i er um" I sighed "Michael-" "hey I get it, it was one of those days, we all get it, especially on tour" I took a sip of coffee "yeah, but I was still a dick and i'm sorry for that" Michael gave a smile "you're forgiven, and everyone else forgives you too" confusion sinked into my head "but I haven't apologised to everyone else yet" "no but everyone hears everything" he said with a playful smirk "that's right, we all forgive you Ash!" I heard Casey say to the room next to this, "thanks!" I turned to Michael again "but not like..everything right?" I said with a nervous chuckle. I watched how Michael walked closer towards me with that same smirk plastered on his lips "everything." he said with a wink and walked out back to everyone else, trying not to freak out. he was just joking right?? he couldn't have heard!

"Sup bro?" I faintly heard Calum say, at least I think it was Calum anyway "why are you staring at the kitchen sink?" the same person asked with a confused chuckle "thinking of Michael?" now that snapped me out of my thoughts and looked over to Calum who was wiggling his eyebrows "eh?" "you were daydreaming right after Michael walked out" "oh right, no more of freaking out and confusment" "really? why?" "we were just talking and then he was going on about how everyone hears everything and I just-" "you were thinking of last night weren't you?" I nodded "Ash he is just joking around, there is no way that is possible, even if someone did hear, don't you think they would have said something by now?" "i guess so" "Exactly, now sit your ass down" "sorry Dad." I mocked and sat down with everyone else, Calum doing the same. Not long until him and Nia started making out "Ew morning breath and making out? gross" Luke commented "your just jealous that Arzaylea isn't here"Miranda said "well true but-"

At that point I had zoned out, not that I didn't care because I do, but scrolling through Twitter seeing this whole 'Mashton' stuff had not died down, not to mention there was a little hate too, then again there always was but seeing things like "Muke is real bitches" or "they would never date." does hurt, it does hurt a lot, but maybe it's true. Actually not maybe. it is true. He never has and never will fall for me, I mean why would he? i'm just a bandmate, nothing more.

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DOUBLE UPDATE! yeah the ending is pretty depressing ik, the next chap will be in Michael's pov so you'll get to see what he thinks of the whole thing, probably and hopefully will be up tomorrow!

I love ya'll and stay safe xoxo