I feel like
Nothing I can ever do or say will express just how much I miss you. And want you back alive.
I can't help but to think that you're disappointed with how far I've slipped since you died, but you also should have seen that one coming.
I was still really emotionally dependant on you so.
Everything is falling apart at my feet.
I feel abandoned and alone.
I feel like there's nothing I can do to keep people with me..
You were with me the longest.
And now you're not. You know?
I just wanted to be the same stability for you that you were for me.
So I'm really sorry that I wasn't.
I still love you though. With every shred of my existence.
