I dont know what I'm doing anymore.
I am walking blind here. I don't know how I'm not flunking every class I'm in. I dont know how I have the mental ability to converse and act myself every day. I don't know how I get out of bed every day.
I really don't fucking understand how I haven't killed myself already. I just don't have a will to live anymore.
I'm flying blind.
I'm about 4 threads from falling apart completely.
You used to tell me how to deal with this. You used to save me from this feeling.
I can't cope with your death. I really can't. Please come back.
