Am I a freak?

Chapter Seventeen

Chapter Seventeen

Once I was at school I did all I could to avoid Andrew, which was really hard since we were practically in all the same lesson. So I turned up to every lesson as late as I could so there would only be a few seats left, I’d look around spot Andrew and sit on the opposite side of the room. The day finally ended and I had successfully avoided Andrew the whole time but how would I avoid him at home? I’ve got it! I rushed home as fast as I could and ran into my room locking the door behind me. I let out the breath that I hadn’t noticed I’d been holding and leaned my forehead against the door, trying to regain my composure.

“Finally!” I froze when I heard the voice, my eyes went wide and my breathe caught in my throat. I turned around slowly and there Andrew sat on my bed with his arms crossed across his chest and a frown on his face, “you’ve been avoiding me all day!”

“No shit!” I whispered, “Hang on! What are you doing here so early I was pretty sure that I’d left school before anyone else!”

“Well…” he chuckled as he looked down awkwardly “I kind of left last lesson so I could beat you here?”

“Why?” I raised my eyebrow and crossed my arms over my chest.

“Well…hang on I’m meant to be asking the questions here! You’re avoiding me for no reason at all!” I looked at him shocked when I saw how angry he looked.

“What? How can you ask me that? How can you not know?”

“How am I meant to know?”

“Because you’re meant to know! You’re the one that started it!” I shouted taking a step closer to him with every word without noticing that my feet were moving.

“What? How did I start it?” a frown took over his features.

“The weirdness! The disgust!” I exclaimed a tear finding a way to escape “The awkwardness!” by now I was having a break down my body shaking from trying to hold back all the tears, all signs of anger had left me and was now replaced by hurt “I thought you were different!” my voice cracked as I spoke making it sound weak which I hated.

“What?!” he repeated “what weirdness! What disgust?!” he shouted “do you feel those towards me?!”

“What?!” I said confused “No! It’s what you feel!”

“Well I’m glad you know how I feel because I certainly did not know that I felt those things!”

“Really” my voice cracked as more tears escaped down my face.

“Not for a second! What would make you think any of that?” his voice was gentle as he spoke he came towards me and put a hand on my shoulder awkwardly.

“Because of that!” I shouted, giving up on hiding how I felt, I let the tears flow freely down my face as I looked at Andrew’s guilt stricken face “because you can stand to be next to me, because you can’t stand it when I touch you, because you wouldn’t even look me in the eye!” The last words came out in sobs as my knees gave out I fell to the floor, my face buried in my hands, my whole body shock from the violent sobs leaving my throat.

“I’m so sorry!” Andrew said as he wrapped his arms around me “I didn’t mean to make it seem like that! None of that is true! I don’t hate being next to you! As a matter of fact I love being next to you and as for your touch! It drives me crazy! I find it keep my hands to myself! I didn’t look you in the eye the other day because I was embarrassed about what I saw! I didn’t know how to re-act since it was such an intimate and personal thing for you!” I wiped my eyes and looked up to meet Andrew’s steady gaze.

“Really?” I croaked out.

“Really” I wrapped my arms around him and cried into his t-shirt, he just sat there stroking my hair saying it would be okay and that he couldn’t believe that I had ever thought of any of those things. Slowly my tears stopped and the shaking calmed down, I slowly pulled away from Andrew, whipping my tears away with my sleeve.

“I’m sorry about you top” I said as I looked at his soaked t-shirt.

“It’s okay” he chuckled, the sound gave me goose bumps, I looked up into his eyes and returned his smile. He slowly lifted his hand and cupped my cheek “I’m sorry I made you feel any of those things and most importantly I’m sorry I made you cry. I never want to see you upset ever again!” We sat there in silence looking into each other’s eyes, neither of us pulling away and I found myself inching forward a little, when I realised what I was doing I stopped but Andrew didn’t he moved closer and closer until our lips were only a few millimetres apart, he closed his eyes and I moved my gaze to his lips “tell me if you want me to stop” he whispered, his minty breath tickled my lips making my heart flutter. He moved closer still moving slowly and it was starting to get on my nerves so I quickly closed the gap between our lips and Andrew froze in shock for a second before he kissed me back. It felt amazing, our lips moving in perfect sync. Sparks flying through my whole body warming me from head to toe, never has a kiss ever affected me like this before, and we finally pulled away for air. I leaned my forehead against his breathing heavily a smile made its way on to my lips “wow” He breathed.