Thoughts of a Lithromantic

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i just realized some of these numbers are out of order and i am missing some....... oh well

so I HAVE EXCITING AND GROSS NEWS! So for most,normal non aromantic people they would be excited , hence why I said excited. But I am not the normal, so here we go!

So I had just gotten out of history and was at my locker. My next class (Biology) was right across the hall from my locker and I saw my friend (David) standing there, so my first thougt was. Oh that isn't his next class, idiot must be confused. So I unlock my locker and get my binder. 

As i closed my locker my friend Jordan says "Olivia you have a friend." and I turn to see david. AND this motherfucker handed me a halloween PEZ dispenser and 2 strawberry flavors. So I was like,"why?" he was like " reasons" and ran off . Then I was asked to the dance by him and after bio he was like standing outside and made awkward eye contact with me.

My friend , Jordan, was like omg olivia your blushing! But i couldnt tell her why , it was because I wanted to beat the living shit outa this boy for doing this, I found it revolting.
(EDITING ME: that might sound rude but when people do stuff like that I feel like barfing and I have done so once and ppl joke I'm allergic to romance but it's so true)
So yes, it does turn out I can't have crushes or be in love. Turns out I have been faking liking people for my own brain's entertainment. Because I found this idiot being romantic revolting. But i still said yes to not hurt him. Then I had a "wedding" with ravioli and I was even was grossed out by that.

point is, sometimes I wish I could fall in love but once I do I realize how gross and painful and horrible it is. Like all my past crushes, I always felt gross and horrible but I never knew why. NOW I FUCKING KNOW, FREEEEDOOOOMMMMMMMM!

Okay, so later today I told my best friend Abby (shoutout to you fam) about this and her first words were "Eww, that creature?" Like yes he isn't the best looking but honestly, I don't even fall in love and I know its what matters on the inside. Trust me I never find a person "attractive" just by looks. But Abby on the other hand does, and that's okay but its what is on the inside that matters.

Anyway so then I said , "That's kinda mean, he is actually really nice," at the time I was honestly mad at her for saying that, like don't judge a book by it's cover. And Abby , you might read this and if you find this offensive what I am saying, that's a little painful. I recognize your flaws and accept them, I don't want to change you, you are perfect the way you are and if your gonna like someone by looks, I honestly don't care. I just want you happy, because in the animal kingdom, it is looks that attract mates so it is natural. And if you're gonna go off and get pissed about what I'm saying than you need to chill. 

( editing 2021 v - PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE KNOW I was saying this sarcastically oh my gosh ;-; it sounds like im mansplaining but i was saying this as a joke oh my gosh im so sorry) 

*None of the above was meant to be rude. I am just naturally savage and fuck with cabbage , inside joke.*

So ya, I also got closer to Ellie today. Ellie is this girl in my class who I think is honestly one of the coolest people alive, and she was the one who approached me first to be friends so I am just really happy. Like at the award ceremony, we sat together and like kicked each other but that was fun :). OH and also she was like "Everyone hates me, life hates me!" Then I was like "I don't hate you," and she started to pet my face. then I narrated what she did. That was honestly fun, and she always makes depressing puns and is depressed, but thats okay. I like her for who she is and I want to help her if she doesn't want my help then thats cool I just wanna hangout with her.(EDITING ME; damn I am very ignorant, please delete me)

*when you have a deep platonic love for your friends because that is all you will ever need in life.*

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sorry for grammar and if this didn't make sense but oh well, enjoy life :)