It's been awhile and nothing has gotten better. If anything it's gotten worse.
I live every day in fear following the rules that were programmed into me by the ex (that had my heart). If he still has it it would be dust. The Katelin i had re created is now dead again. I dont know who i am anymore.
Bullying is still there. All around me. Wherever I go. There is no more escaping it and when he stopped caring its when i started caving. I let him in and told him all of the bullying but he said that it was just me over reacting and taking it the wrong way. Cool thanks for giving my depression and suicidal thoughts a head start. I was already trying to hold then back and you just gave them stregnth.
I gave up everything to make you happy and it still wasn't good enough. I was never good enough.
Don't talk to this person or that person infact I might as well not talk to anyone without your premission
Change your phone number too
Don't give it too anyone unless i say so
You're not allowed to wear that you look like a slut
You're such a bitch
you're so annoying
The worst part of it was that i let him. I no longer stood up to myself. I let him trample me and power over me and control me and even though he hurt me I'll always be there for him no matter what. Some people would call me stupid for it but I'm just a nice person. You don't find many of those three days.
Writing about him makes me so upset so I'll stop now before I say too much.
