Rape, sexual assult and assult... the three things a 14 year old shouldnt have to go through...
A secret that i have never told and when i did was never believed
My ex boyfriend (NOT will a different one) who shall remain nameless- was 18 years old I hadn't know him long (slutty I know to date someone after knowing them for a day. I was desperate) we had dated for about 1 month and he wanted to take my virginity and I would always say no i was 14 and I was NOT in love. My parents liked him, thought he was great but I'm all reality he was the opposite. My parents let him sleepover (yes in the same bed) and he would lay there and keep himself off and leave a nice mess for me to sleep in (lovely right) even after telling him not to he still would.
2 months -
I was still denying sex and he wasn't happy. He decided to take drastic measures. We were lying watching a movie on Netflix eating junk at his house. His parents went out and his sister was at her mum's so he decided to take advantage of an empty house and a relaxed me...
He raped me, in the ass it hurt so bad... I couldn't tell anyone no one would believe me... so i bottled it up and now it's too late.
Sexual assult and assult-
Seeing the white light and seeing my shitty life flash in front of my eyes was not a nice experience. Only about a month after the rape I went to my friends house ( a girl ) I thought I would be safe but no. As soon as i got there I had a strange feeling...
We started watching YouTube listening to music and drawing like we always did but today would be different...
She started taking my clothes off she threw me on the bed and took my socks and pants off till I was in nothing but underwear. "Can i put my clothes on please" " I'm cold" "stop" none of my pleas worked she continued. I was now pinned to the bed with her straddling on top of me trying to kiss me and sucking at my neck and pinning me down by my throat I could hardly breathe and could hardly move... I said "I need to pee" she let me go to the bathroom but what she didn't realise is I had taken my phone *call me in 5 min and say youre coming to get me* texting mum. I walked back into room after "peeing" and I was thrown against a wall lifted off the ground by my neck and held there by my neck so i did what i thought was smart and wrapped my legs around her hips to take some weight off my neck so i could breathe and to squeeze and hurt her. It didn't work she squeezed my neck harder and I nearly passed out until the phone rang ( thank you mum) "in outside we have to go" she said. I got dressed and as soon as i got in the car I broke down. I showed mum my neck and she cried with me.
A police investigation is still ongoing and she is still run off somewhere getting away with it.
To this day I still do not sleep right or trust people...
