So I know I literally talk about nothing on this book but hey at least I try alright. All I want is my girlfriend back. Since she hasn't been able to text me I've cried cut almost overdosed lucky didn't. I've also started to not eat. No all of this isn't because of a girl I love it's because I was doing great in upper after I went to the hospital for trying to starve myself. It started to get better. But then my uncle and aunt. Heard that my mom was caught with some stuff and the cops didn't like of course. So she had the choice to snitch or go to jail. She wanted me and my little sister so she snitched. Yettt she had took her sleeping pill. Wanted to hit a cigarette when she was walking down the stairs she fell down. Her face was horrible she stayed in the hospital that night a few days later my aunt and uncle call saying that they are coming to get us. Which I thought was only an visit. My little sister cried I didn't blah blah yeah I cry but that wasn't a moment. Anyway then a few days later after we were back in Springfield Ohio "best place alive"
I over hear a lot of my aunt's conversations with others on the phone. "I mean she almost got beat to death her face was so bad."
In reality she fell down the stairs so whateva miss Betty says is true I guess. Even all my family (my real family) was mad that they had come and got us. Yeah they were here to take care of me but mostly that was my uncle who works his ass off. Yet all he gets is complaints about stupid things. When people have a good life they don't realize it now do i have a good life no. I want to start all over with a dad a mom that doesn't do drugs nor drink. But if I was a foster child I'd never know what kinda family I'd get. That's the bad part yet good part. I could get adopted but someone famous, a rapist, a junkie, all I want is a good life. So I can be happy. I'm happy sometimes in this life but the happiness goes away. I'm sure those that don't have a good life want a good life just as much as me. Yet there's boys and girls out there suffering more than us. Perfect is something i dont believe in I don't believe god I believe in love hope trust and faith. That's all I need to survive not god not Jesus I don't need a person all I need is me. And if I wasn't scared id make my life better id run away with People I love most if they come with me. Okay I'm done imma go take a bath because I'm cold like really cold.
Till next time.
