Wherever The River May Run.

Round And Round We Go.

Sang's POV:

It was awkward...Really awkward. North and I had moved to the living room after I had made us both a coffee and had been sitting, drinking them in complete silence for about 5 minutes now. I was ready to get this over with and I knew we each had quite a bit to say to one another but it seemed that neither of us knew where to start, leaving us in said awkward silence.

I finally decided to explain what had happened the night of the party, successfully breaking the silence but the tension in the room was still almost tangible. I set my coffee mug on the table and sat back more on the couch, crossing one leg over the other and met his unwavering dark eyed gaze.

"The night you got drugged at the Ashley Waters party we got into am argument after I drove us back to Nathans. We had been in the kitchen and eventually we ended up kissing for the first time, and that lead to more. So much more. You were gentle with me, always making sure I was comfortable and it was amazing." I started quietly. I knew he would have been worried about hurting me and I needed him to know that wasn't the case before I moved on to the next piece of information.

"It was absolutely amazing, and romantic, and just...just beautiful." I said on an exhale, a small smile made its way onto his face and I shared one as well.

"It was perfect until afterwards, you helped me clean up and passed out quickly, and I laid there thinking about it until it registered in my brain that the reason any of it had even happened was because you had been drugged." I whispered the last part and unshed tears gathered in my eyes but I blinked them away quickly, there was still more, and I needed to get through it before I could let myself fall apart.

"The next morning you didn't remember and by the time I had came up with a way to tell you, you were already hugging me goodbye and heading out for an assignment. Weeks went by and you guys had been busier than ever. I never got a chance to speak with you alone, then I took the pregnancy test and I knew I would not only have to tell you, but the others as well." I explained and sighed playing with my fingers on my lap, looking at them for a while letting North digest what I had just told him before I continued, but he spoke up before I could.

"Then you told us, and we attacked you, I remember that...but why the hell didn't you tell me then, Sang. You had a chance to tell me that night, and instead you let us believe that you...fuck, Sang why the hell didn't you fucking tell us that night?" He growled out and I tensed, I knew he would be mad, but I thought he would understand why I didn't tell them, especially with he way they had reacted just to me being pregnant.

"I didn't have a chance North. I couldn't even get two words in between you, Nathan and Owen throwing accusations left and right. Nathan accused me of "fucking" someone outside the group. You as well, right before you asked Dr. Sean if I could basically get rid of it. Do you know how bad that hurt me North? Do you know how bad it hurts to hear that you wanted me to get rid of my baby." I yelled and the tears had started streaming now but I didn't care, he was angry, but so was I and I was going to fight back as well, not just sit there and let him say whatever he wanted, that wasn't me anymore. That was a scared little girl, but I wasn't afraid anymore and I refused to let any of those boys walk all over me.

"That was before I knew you were pregnant with my fucking kid, Sang. You can't hold me to that, I didn't know, and you have yourself to fucking blame for that one. You should have told me, god damnit." He bellowed, his fists clenched in anger and his jaw was set. I stood up and started pacing, trying to contain my own anger, before I lost control and I rounded on him, pointing an accusing finger at him, as my face contorted in a burning rage.