The Tree Of Words.

Melancholy-I

This is my first attempt at a non rhyming poem so bear with me :)

Anger courses through my veins,

Doubts buzz like flies in my head,

Jealousy eats deep into my inner core,

Sadness has become my daily companion,

And pain clouds my sense of self.

Why can't they leave me alone?

I don't want to feel any of those feelings,

Maybe, Just maybe,

If I closed my mind I won't,

But these feelings weasel in somehow.

Maybe if I tried creating a mental barrier,

If I tried to observe and not feel,

But I'm too much of a sapling, a weakling,

And mere feelings win,

And I see the barricade crumbling before my eyes.

I hold onto it for dear sanity,

But I can't seem to get a grip hard enough,

I'm filled with a sense of hopelessness,

And despair makes my life bleak,

Why can't they just stop?

Why can't I just disappear,

Slip into oblivion,

Vanish into thin air like I never existed?

Why can't I cease to be and start to not be?

Why can't I fall asleep never to wake up?

Why? Why?? Why???

So many whys and ifs but where are the answers??

NOWHERE!!!!

[Love, Beebs♥]