Fault of being Reticent

Chapter-3 Rejection & Disappointment

"See David! i told you she is a total crap, candidate like her are just a waste of time if she is not going to speak just kick her out of the room", Rajveer said to David Sir who was frustrated with his behaviour. He was warning him with his eyes to stop this but Rajveer was not even interested in looking at them. Crap!

I was now crying all the tears that i had been controlling rolled down from my eyes. David sir looked at me with concern in his eyes. He mouthed me 'COME ON SPEAK'. I immediately wiped my tears and inhaled a deep breath i cleared my throat and started, "I am here because I WANTED TO BE HERE. Its one of my dream to work in this company. If i g-get this opportunity I will definitely give my full efforts in my work.  I will work with honesty, sincerity and punctually. I am here because i wanted to be here like i said. I live my life with positive attitude i knew it that one day i will make it here and Today is the day.". I paused and wiped the other tears from my eyes "And i a-am not a...a CRAP!. I am going to be the best for this company and I am not going to lose this opportunity at least I can try my level best not to". I completed my sentence in between rushing tears and with the growing anger and annoyance towards him. Sometimes i hate my over sensitive and over emotional nature.

Oh god!! i should have run away the moment i saw him. I should had assumed it to be coming and I should be ready but instead I became weak and cried in front of him. All The past and bad moments started playing in my mind. He was behaving as if i did something wrong to him. What was his problem?

"This is the worst thing i had ever listened from any of our candidate. You know what? just... GET OUT.",  Rajveer barked at me.

What??

I was now hurt no one had ever insulted me like this. I was feeling low. This was enough I was unable to handle it anymore and hence i bursted into tears. I quickly grabbed my file from the table and stood from the chair. I looked to David sir and shaked my hand with him. He shaked back and was looking  ashamed for his friends behaviour but there was really no need of it. After all it was not his mistake. The damage had been done. He passed me an apologetic smile and then i turned around and rushed towards the exit door as fast as i could.

"What the hell is your problem she performed very well man and we needed a candida....",I heard David's voice and then it vanished since i got out of that office.

I closed the door behind me, stood beside the wall near the door and started crying like a broken person. I immediately wiped tears but as much as i wiped them they were keep coming i controlled alot but i did not succeed. It was hard to control emotions.

"What will i do now?", I muttered myself.

This was the best opportunity i had got and now it was gone. I lost it because of my past because of the mistakes i had done in the past it was my mistake that i made him my best friend why did i even do that? He left me, he used to be my best buddy and my love. It was Ronny who helped me to get out of the shock which Rajveer gave me by leaving & without an explanation. 2 years ago. I still didn't know why he left and maybe I would never know.

 I got out of the building and spotted a bench inside the lawn in the company campus. This was too much for me to hold on so i needed to think for sometime, i needed to clear my mind. I quietly sat on that bench and buried my head in my hands. I was hurt, had lost hope and disappointed. I saw the building.

This is it!!! my dream ends before even coming true and i started crying again. I was in deep thoughts when my phone vibrated, pulling me out of train of thoughts. I pulled my phone out of my pocket and swiped the screen to answer without even looking at the caller id.

"Hey! how was the interview? I am sure you have cleared it after all it was your drea....", As soon as the words left his mouth, he stopped in mid-sentence when he probably heard my sobbings.

"No Ronny i failed.....", i told him honestly while continuously crying. Ronny was one of my good friend ever since Rajveer left. He was there whenever i needed him. He helped me alot to get through everything that happened in the past. He always encouraged me.  I met him through Rajveer he was his friend. And since then he became my friend not just friend but a good one.

"This is not possible... i mean you worked hard for that how can they just reject you they are fools, they are dumb useless idiots..I am telling you Ana....don't be upset because of them. Just calm down okay?", Ronny said disappointed although I could sense the care and concern for me in his voice.

"Okay listen Calm down we will figure out something but please stop crying", Ronny requested. He gave me a long encouraging speech for which i was certainly not interested that time. And therefore i did not even listen what he told me. I just replied him with 'hmm..' 'okay' words.

"Ronny i am fine can i talk to you later... uhm after reaching my apartment?", I wanted to be alone that time and i guess he noticed that and said, "Okay but please take care." And with that he hanged up the phone.

After talking to him i felt a little bit relieved. I got up from the bench and walked out of the building with a sad face. I saw the watchman was looking at me but not with a merciful way like others were doing. Something was not looking good with him. Earlier this morning when i met him he was cheerful and happy and now his face was looking tired and exhausting maybe because of the work load. I passed him a sweet smile and in response to that i saw his face lightened up and he smiled back to me and said, "Good day ma'am see you again".

 You will never see me again, I wanted to say but decided against it and walked out.

When i got out of the company's premises i went straightly towards the near metro station. After reaching i started waiting for the train. I saw the two boys were in the platform and they were waiting for the train like me.

"Wow man i am so happy that i got selected. Although Rajveer sir was very strict but at last he turned out to be the nice one." As soon as i heard the Devil's name i turned my glance towards them and saw that they were the same guys who were present there in the company. The same boy in the blue colour shirt said to the other guy wearing red shirt.

"I am happy for you man. i wish they had selected me too...but i will try again..", said the other guy wearing the red shirt.

I was upset for me but i was happy for the one who got selected. He deserved that he had good accents and etiquettes. My train arrived and i got inside leaving there conversation to themselves. I sat quietly in the train and started thinking about the whole day. My hands were on my cheeks and i was in deep thinking.

'If life would be easy there will be no fun in living it.Our mind makes things Easy or Hard. We humans are made to find new ways to live our life more happily. Never regret always be confident whatever happens, happens for a reason', my mom used to say me that when i was a kid.

She had always been an inspiration for me. Her words always used to give me confidence. I took a deep breath and recollected myself.

'This interview can't make me lose my confidence i have to try i just can't lose hope..I will fulfil my dream no matter what', My inner voice encouraged me.

There was no need of getting sad all over on an interview. I had to be strong there are so many other companies where i can perform well and also there will be no Rajveer.

I got up from my seat as soon as i saw my destination arrived in the LED.  My apartment was only few blocks away from metro station so i preferred to walk mostly. Few minutes later i was in my apartment. I opened the door and went directly to my bed, lied on it and started thinking about the whole day. By the time i reached in the apartment Molly was gone. Molly was my roommate and she was a fashion designer and who mostly lived out basically leaving me alone in the apartment.

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