Fault of being Reticent

Chapter 11

~~I hate that I love you, don't want to but I can't put nobody else above you.~~

Hello guys, this chapter will start from R.V's POV. This chapter will help you know about R.V's thoughts about Ana. How he thinks about her and why he is like this?, it will give be helpful in giving you an idea of the story.   

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R.V

I roamed my hands clutching tightly on her waist and squeezing it. God, i had missed her so damn much. Her lips tastes the same way as it used to be. I missed kissing her and touching her. I had missed every thing of her. She was never out of my mind. I mindlessly started kissing on the crook of her neck. A moan escaped her mouth as soon as i bite that sensible spot on her neck. I had to stop this before i lose myself in her. My mind continuously sent alarming signals to stop this, to stop kissing her right now but my body betrayed his orders. I was enjoying this very much.

I bite her lower lip and kissed her again this time more passionately. It was looking like all the emotions that i had been controlling from last so many months had started to come out. I wanted this i wanted her so badly. This was one of the best moment of my life. I myself never thought that i needed her this much in my life. I was holding her tightly as much as i could as if the moment i lose the grip around her petite figure she will run away and i never wanted that well not at least this moment when i was enjoying it the most.

Her small and soft hands gently touched my cheeks and that was the moment when something flashed in my mind and i quickly parted away breaking the most intense kiss we were sharing. As soon as i took two steps back i felt the emptiness around me. I saw her face and found her embarrassed. She was embarrassed to kiss me?

Yeah! Of course she must be. Who am i to her now?, I thought and a sharp pain escaped from my heart as if someone had stabbed in it. I was now nothing to her, In fact i was never anything to her. She always fooled me around and i was a complete idiot who never found out that. When i found out i was broken into pieces and i still was. Broken and lost.

"You may leave now, we will work tomorrow", i said and rushed to the washroom without giving her a single glance. I don't want her to see me weak, not in front of her. I closed the door and looked myself in the mirror.

Why did i fail to control myself? I should have not done this.

I hated this whenever i failed to control myself in front of her. Why the hell did i even love her. I don't believe this, after every pain she gave me she still had the same effect on me.

When i came out she was not in the room, probably left. I sat on my chair and the first thing that i helplessly did was to switch on my laptop and then the CCTV footage. I purposely made her sit on the place just below the CCTV camera so that i could be able to keep an eye on her all the time. I maximize the CAM3 screen and found her on seat tapping something on keyboard. I zoomed the image a little more and found tears flowing out of her eyes. Damn those tears, they always made me weak. I hated this to see her crying but she had to face them she had to go through the same pain from which i went through.