Young, Wild, & Free

Ch. 17

[Yongguk]

It's been a few days since we came home from Hawaii, it seems BAP had a blast and Avery's family was amazing and friendly. BAP was heading out for one last tour of 2016. I really hope we're home for Christmas, I'd like to spend it with my family and Avery at her apartment. I was at Avery's house helping her set up and decorate her Christmas tree. 

Avery was dressed in a long tee with leggings just like the day we first started hanging out. She has yet to let me see her dance or let me hear her sing and play piano. I wonder if she's just scared and thinks I'll judge her. What saddens me is that I found out from her mom that in October of 2018, she'll be heading back to LA but I don't want that. I want to keep her here, with me. 

I noticed that she was having troubles so I decided to help her out which then turned into her falling onto of me and just like in the movies, we kissed, she quickly sat up and covered her mouth. I smiled at her to tell her that it was okay. She then started laughing as well as myself. She got up and then helped me up. Words cannot express what I feel whenever I'm around her or when I think of her. 

Lately though, fans have been posting things like 'is Yongguk secretly dating someone?' or 'is Avery secretly dating someone?' type things all because of us being in Hawaii together but Avery isn't letting it bother her. She told me that she is well known on YouTube for singing, dancing and piano playing. Her sister told us that she's even been on America's Got Talent, the Voice, and American Idol. 

I watched Avery cook dinner tonight, just everything about her is wonderful. She's beautiful, intelligent, funny, friendly... like I said words cannot express these types of things. I walked up behind her and put my arms around her waist. I want to ask her out but I'm afraid she'll reject me and just friendzone me. Zelo's told me that she likes me but doesn't know how to express her feelings easily.

For dinner, we were having lemon-lime cilantro chicken with steamed broccoli and lime cilantro wild rice. I will say this, she is an amazing cook. We talked about the plans for the tour and myself hoping that we're home by Christmas. I decided to stay the night again with Avery. We both took showers and changed into some night clothes. I held Avery in my arms as we drifted off to sleep.