Bad boy dan

Chapter 4

Dan's pov

It was Wednesday morning, I got up feeling happy and excited. I wouldn't have to worry about my mum abusing me, or my dad cause who the hell knows where he is, but most importantly, Phil was sleeping over tonight. I think I was way more excited than I should be but I guess im just hormonal, I mean, I am 17. I arrived at school and waited at Phil's locker. I was watching the doors intensely to see when Phil walked in. About 5 minutes later a raven haired boy walks through the doors with the largest smile on his face. The corners of his mouth were basically touching his ears. I ran up to him about to hug him when I realized that we weren't actually a thing, I keep forgetting that, its more just I feel so comfortable with him that I think we are close enough like that, but he probably thinks im weird, considering I was crying on his lap not even a week ago.

Phil's pov

I walked In the school doors eager to see Dan. I really do like Dan, he has a nice soul. Everyone thinks different of him though. I know he's going through rough times at home but im so glad to see that he is happy. I pushed open the doors with a big grin on my face, I saw Dan running towards me with slightly open arms, he was going to hug me, I was about to open my arms up to hug him back but he put his arms down and smiled at me.
"Hey!"
I love his smile, it makes me want to smile more when I see it but I dont think that's possible.
"Hi Dan" I replied.
"Have you got all the stuff you need for tonight?" He asked festering to my bag.
"Yep, its all in here" I said while tapping on my bag.
We went to our lockers and I put my extra bag in so I would have to carry it around all day.

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We have English last which was pretty convenient since we were going home with each other. After English we went to our lockers, collected our things and started walking. We didnt talk much on our way to his house, it was more just listening to music. We arrived at his house, it was large with a small balcony above the door way. He opened the door and let me in first.
"Welcome to my magical palace" he said extending his arm out. It was really big and grand, his parents must be loaded or something.
"Whoa. Your house is so cool. What do your parents do?" I asked.
"Um, they, Uhhh, im not to sure" he answered. I looked at him confused but then concerned when i saw his head drop not looking up at me.

Dan's pov

"Whoa. Your house is so cool. What do your parents do?" Phil asked.
I couldn't tell him what they really did, he would walk out for sure and never talk to me again. Im so embarrassed about my parents jobs. It's not even a job considering its illegal. My parents are so called 'rich' because of one thing only. Drugs. They have been drug suppliers, dealers, and smugglers for how ever many years, but all i know is to not tell anyone or my dad will literally murder me. When Phil asked me, i really had no clue what to say.
"Um, they, Uhhh, im not to sure"
I dropped my head so I wouldn't make eye contact with him, I could feel him looking at me with concern. I felt a soft pair of hands against my cheeks, lifting my head up slightly.
"You dont have to be ashamed of everything Dan, you can tell me anything, I wont judge, everyone is different and have their own unique problems. I promise that you can trust me no matter what" he pulled me into an embrace as I felt a tear roll down my cheek and onto his shoulder. I took my hand and quickly wiped it away so that Phil wouldn't see me cry but before I knew it, I had a whole flow of tears streaming down my face, I hid my face in my hands so that he wouldn't see again, but he took my hands and held them.
"Its okay to cry, its normal and completely healthy, its actually good to cry"
"Do you want to tell me?" He continued. I nodded and he lead me over to the lounge and we sat down. I waited a little before I started talking to just figure out how to say it.
"My parents abuse me. They abuse me because im bisexual and because they are always drunk or on some kind of drugs" I said in between sobs. He stared at me with wide eyes but with sympathy.
"Have you told anyone?" He asked, I shook my head in response.
"They threatened to kill me if I did, and if they get put in jail, I dont want to be an orphan" I looked up so I could see his eyes. We were none just staring at eachother before we hugged me again. I hugged him back tighter, gripping to his shirt. After a few moments we pulled away.
"What do you want to do?" I giggled a little, wiping my tears off my face.
"Do you have Mario karts?" He asked. I nodded and motioned for him to follow me upstairs. I set up the Wii and got 2 controllers.
"Do you play often?" He asked.
"Uha. I love Mario"
We played for hours. It was now 7 o'clock and i was getting hungry.
"Hey Phil, do you want to get something to eat?"
"Yeah, what are we gonna have for dinner?"
"Pizza?" He nodded his head in excitement when I said pizza. He's so cute. I grabbed my phone and ordered.
"They said it will be here in half an hour"
"Okay. Oh hey have you watched that new anime, yuri on ice?" Phil asked. How does he know I watch anime?, did he look under my pillow?
"Um, no, but how did you know I watch anime?"
"Ummmmm, well I saw something under your grey and black pillow so I lifted it and saw haru"
"Haha, do you like free?"
"Yes!, its one of my favourites, apart from parasite" he answered.
"So what's this 'yuri on ice' you talk about?" I asked while opening my laptop to crunchy roll.
"Well, its about this kid named yuri who is really good at ice skating, well figure skating, and there is this Russian guy named victor who is even better and is really famous"
I opened up to the website and saw that there were three subbed episodes and one dubbed.
"Wow, they have already dubbed this?"
"Yeah because so many people have been watching it"
Phil came and sat next to me on the bed, I clicked on the first episode that was sub. We watched that and as soon as it finished the door bell rang.
"Oh, pizzas here, that was great timing" I said getting up and walking downstairs to collect the pizza.

Phil's pov

Dan went downstairs to get the pizza and I waited upstairs in his room. Should I tell Dan how I feel? I mean he does kind of need comfort right now. No, I cant. That would just mess things up, he needs to sort out what he's going to do with his parents, but I will help, he cant do this on his own, he's just a teenager. 17 year Olds shouldn't be going through things like this.
"Special pizza delivery" he said in a werid voice walking in holding a pizza and a Bottle of drink. I laughed at the voice he made and we sat on the floor and ate while watching the TV in his room. We were watching she rock season 2. This was great, I've never had a friend like Dan, so close, we can talk about a lot of things and he likes everything j like too.

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I looked over at the clock yawning. It read ten to twelve.
"Do you want to go to bed now?" He asked. I nodded, got up and went to the bathroom in dans room, grabbing my pyjamas on the way. I was getting changed when I noticed the cupboard was a jar and I saw something red but also silver and shiny. I opened the door a little more to see a packet of razors covered in blood. I ran out holding one in my fingers and looked at him, tears starting to form in my eyes. He turned to look at me and saw what I was holding, his head dropped and I saw a tear fall onto the floor.
"Dan" I said in a soft voice.
"It helps me have a little control over some of my life" he said tears now rushing down his face.
"When did you do it last?" I asked in between sobs.
"A while ago" no it wasnt Dan, the blood is slightly new.
"This morning, before school" I walked over putting the razor in the bin and hugged him.
"You dont need to do that, we will fix this, together. I promise" he hugged me back tighter now gripping my back because I forgot to put a shirt on when I ran out of the bathroom.
"Im so sorry Phil" my heart dropped when he said that. Why is he sorry?
"Dont be sorry, none of this is your fault" I pulled out of the hug, took his wrists in my hands and kissed the horrid scars left behind from the iron blades. No one should ever feel like they should do this to themselves.
"Lets go to sleep now, its getting late" he hopped in bed, I turned off the lights and got into bed next to him. I was facing away from Dan when I heard;
"Phil, can you hug me again please?" I rolled over and put my arms around him, resting my head on his. I heard him let out a sigh, but it was more a sigh of relief.

Dan's pov

When Phil rested his head on mine i let out a sigh, this felt so good to be held and feel loved, but i dont think Phil loves me like that, he's just being Phil.

~(in dans dream)~

I was walking through a soft pink hallway, i was with Phil. He was holding my hand. I looked up at him with confusion. He looked dose at me and pecked me on the lips.
"Its okay Dan, your with me now" the pink got even more brighter when he said that. We kept walking and the hall started turning red. I looked beside me and saw that Phil was gone. I stopped and looked around in search of Phil. Everything was now red.
"DANIEL" I jumped at the sudden loudness coming from behind me. I spun around in shock to see my parents standing there both with knives.
"We've been waiting so long to do this your mother and I" they come closer to me, I couldn't move, I was stuck. I felt a sharp pain in my chest. I looked down to see a knife.
"Goodbye Daniel, you piece of shit" everything went black, I could feel cold wet trails on my cheeks.

~(end of dream)~

I opened my eyes to see Phil sitting me up in his lap, rocking me back and forth while stroking my hair saying;
"Its okay Dan, im here, your awake now. It was just a bad dream" i looked down to my chest and felt around to see if there was any mark. Nothing. It wasnt real, but it felt real, I could feel the pain as the knife was in my chest. I nuzzled my head into phils chest and began to cry more.
"Please dont leave me Phil"
"I would never" we sat there like that more several minutes until I pulled away, looked him in the eyes and said;
"Phil. I love you" he stared back at me before answering.
"I love you too, Daniel" we layed back down and I was not curled up hugging phil tightly.