sometimes People forget that I'm just an human being like everybody else , I get hurt,I break down,I have feelings, like everyone else
but tell me why
why do I get treated differently?
why does everyone hate me?
why don't I get to be happy ?
is it because I'm not worth it ?
is it because I'm useless?
I don't know ,
I don't feel like anyone is trust worthy right now , because every time I trust even one person,everything falls apart, again, I can't handle anything else rn, it just gets too much,you know ?? I'm not some kind of robot,I have feelings too,I have thoughts that would scare you , I have scars that you would be disturbed by , and it's all because of this awful society, I don't fit in like everyone else ,I'm always going to be alone no matter what, there's no one that really gives a shit ,
every time someone asks
"how are you ?"
you just have to say that you're fine but you're not really fine you just can't get into it because they would never understand ..
I try so so hard to think positive,be a bit active but it doesn't work , my grades are really going down,my parents are getting more and more abusive by the day and I keep wanting to give up on everything, and everyone,because it's not worth it anymore,
rn while Typing this im crying my eyes out im really thinking of just ending it all ,you know? because there's no reason to stay , I had my reasons and even those few reasons are pointless less right now....
YOU ARE READING
Thoughts
De Todothis book is written by me ,it's about how I feel ,what I go through on a daily basis and what goes through me every day again, I only write when I'm on my worst, I'm sorry if it's all written shitty I'm not really good at this ..
