do you know what it feels like to be unappreciated?
like it's not just Normal anymore,
I walk into a room with my parents yelling at me how stupid or worthless I am
I have been told that I'm not worth being helped,my own parents told me that , I feel really shitty lately and it's only getting worse and worse even if I'd wanna talk about it , I always shut down !!!
it's crazy like I do wanna talk about it but I always end up saying I'm just fine and there's nothing wrong....
well there is a lot wrong
and I'm Definitely not fine but it doesn't matter anymore, not to the people I care about at least,if they don't care ,who even does ...
do you know how much it sucks to sit down and just cut your wrist? your thighs? hips ?
it sucks Cuz the more you cut the "better" you feel I guess
it's like a drug
you're happy for a while
but it just comes back again
every word
every hurt
every thought
it just comes back and you can't run away from it anymore,
it's chasing you everywhere you go and one day you're gonna get tired of running from it !
And then you stop running.
it's gonna get you
and there's no way back because you will get to realise that depression will kill you some day . it will happen I fucking promise you
YOU ARE READING
Thoughts
De Todothis book is written by me ,it's about how I feel ,what I go through on a daily basis and what goes through me every day again, I only write when I'm on my worst, I'm sorry if it's all written shitty I'm not really good at this ..
