Mental Breakdown

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Jimin's perspective

"You gotta choose. Her or yourself"

"What?"

"I want you to turn yourself in. I can't be the only one who will go down. So, I made my decision, it's either you turn yourself in or I'll kill Sora"

"What?! You fucking psych-"

"You know me, Jimin. I love you, but I can't sacrifice that much for you. We need to pay for our sin" Yoel licked his lips, crossing his arms as if he's triggering me. "What? Is it a tough decision?"

I chuckled, "Hell nah, she...she is...precious to me. I won't let anything happen to her like what you did to Seulgi!"

Yoel shrugged with a smile, "Alright then" and he left the house.

We had that conversation yesterday. He said to turn myself in, but I don't know if he's going to expose me or not. Either way, I still need to be cautious. I'm dealing with a murderer anyway. I need a plan for myself so that I could turn myself in quietly. Who can I lean on? ah, I could only talk to Yoongi and Jin. The rest are no good.

I pulled out my phone and call Yoongi's number. Hyung, please pick up.

"Hello?" A deep, lazy voice answered.

"Hyung, Sorry, but are you free now?"

"No, Bye"

"Hyung!" Yoongi hung up on me. Is this a joke? I hope it is. I opened my GPS in my phone and traced Yoongi's location. See? He's in his apartment right now.

I rang the doorbell, avoiding the hole where Yoongi could see my face. The door wasm't opened by him. As expected, he's very cautious. I rang the doorbell again, twice in a row, "Your delivery is here!" I shouted. From behind the doors, I could hear footsteps coming.

"I didn't order any delivery. Maybe Sora?" Yoongi mumbled as the door was opened. I jumped infront of him and barged myself in to his apartment. Yoongi yelped and stared at me for quite a long time.

"You bastard. What are you doing here? Get out!" He said, dragging me outside.

"Ah..hyung! I need your help! I am serious!"

"No, you deal with it yourself, go!"

"It's about Yoel and Sora!" I yelled. Yoongi froze in spot. His grip got gentler and ultimately released me and close the door. He passed by me and sat on the red sofa. I followed him and sat beside him. "Yoongi-hyung. I am in trouble. Sora is in trouble. What should I do?" I hugged tight my backpack.

"What is it? Tell me!" Yoongi got pissed. I already knew he's always weak against Sora and always so strict around her. I couldn't even tell him my feelings for her; not if I could tell him about this.

"Yoel, he seems to almost give up on being a fugitive. I guess he did reflected on himself in prison. But that doesn't make him less sane. He told me...he will turn himself in if only I turn myself in too. So--"

"Wait, why? You didn't do anything wrong Jimin!"

"No, hyung! There's something I haven't tell you! I- I was thene who told Yoel to murder my parents and I didn't say anything about it"

"You dumb-ass! You could be charged for more than ten years!" Yoongi lost his temper. "So now what? What will happen to Sora?" He asked.

"Yoel said, if I don't turn myself in, he will kill Sora" I whispered. Yoongi took a deep breath. He squashed his tv remote and threw it across the room. The apartment became noisy. Yoongi became sane. "Hyung. Stop it right now" I help Yoongi's arm that almost reach for a knife. "There's no use of being like this. So far, Yoel has been quite forgiving to Sora and me. This is what he has up in his sleeve"

"You seem rather calm, huh?" Yoongi yanked my hand away. "So... are you turning yourself in? Ha- of course you have to. Look at you, I never knew you're an accomplice of Yoel, haha" he chuckled and sat back again.

Yeah, I guess I will lose another friend, Yoongi. If i tell Jin, I wonder if he would react like this too. Hoseok, Namjoon, Taehyung, and Jungkook are hopeless, even if I don't tell them, They hated me from the start Seulgi was killed.

"Jimin..." Yoongi called. "I don't want to lose Sora" he muttered. I know that, hyung. That's why I'm thinking- "...but I also don't want to lose you either" Yoongi's answer caught me off guard. His smile was genuine but painful. Where else could I find a friend like him? "Jin told me that too. So, You can always trust me and Jin. We will always got your back". My brain felt numb, my shoulders felt weak. Thank you. Thank you.

***

Not long after that, Jin came joining us in Yoongi's apartment, bringing snacks with him.

"Aigoo...we're not here to have some fun or boys talk" Yoongi pinpoint the snakcs Jin brought.

"ayh, who cares? I will eat it all if you don't want it" Jin took a snack bag and started eating the chips. "Alright, so tell me the reason you guys called me here" Jin chewed. Jin knew, he knew almost everything, Yoongi and I tried our hardest to tell him about Yoel's deal to Sora and how I have to turn myself in. Half-way, Jin stopped eating and gave us his full concentration. He nodded and his gaze was different from before. As expected...of our eldest.

"Okay. What is this mess?" Jin narrowed his eyes on me, upset. "I also told Sora a long time ago to be becareful. Kids these days..." He sighed, dropping his shoulder. "so what's your plan, Jimin?"

Yoongi looked at me, "You have a plan?"

I stared down at the floor, tapping my fingers so nervously, thinking ahead of the consequences. "I will...run away"
A drop of metal could be heard in the silenced. I know Jin and Yoongi probably want to punch me right now.

"Why the fuck would you do that?! Then what about Sora? He will kill her!!" Yoongi yelled.

"No! No! I will negotiate this with Yoel! I! I will go far far away beyond human reach and isolate myself. I will not meet any of you but nature! This, this is equal to what you feel in prison, maybe worst!!" I explained myself reasonably.

"Are you afraid of turning yourself in, Jimin? This method will be harder for you! In prison, at least we can visit you! Or we could pay off your crime, isn't it?" Jin held my trembling hand calmly.

"That's not it. It's different! I...I will not go to prison! I will just run away" I muttered.

"Then tell us fucking why you want to run away you asshole!" Yoongi whispered with rage. Jin calmed him down. This is the time. I knew the time will come where I have to tell Yoongi the truth.

"It's..."

"Why? Huh, why?! Are you afraid, Jimin?" Yoongi asked impatiently.

"No. I'm not afraid of anything if I live in the same world Sora does!" I yelled. Silence came in while Jin and Yoongi stared at me with utter confusion.

"What?"

"I still want to see Sora! I still want to hear how she's doing without me. I want to dream of her. I don't want her to think badly of me. I don't want to stay in prison, thinking that she will visit me, and see me with--with those ugly dull uniform, stating a number, looking at me with pity and sadness, between the invisible wall to let us talk!" I gasped for air. There. There you have it, Yoongi. These are the reason is rather run away. Even if both cases are the same, is rather live adventurously than being a prisoner. Please.

Yoongi stared at me with shocked. He may never even see this coming, or maybe because Sora never shows her affection. "Wait...so...you are-- with Sora, you..." Yoongi stuttered.

"Hyung..."





"...I'm in love with her"



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