[Contains strong language]
It was about 2 am,I was still awake as I can never sleep.Joe got to sleep hours ago. He suddenly woke up and started shaking,I just looked at my phone. He was on the other side of the room,He came over to me noticed I was still awake. I hid under my blanket,like a little kid would do.
Joe pulled the blanket off me,he looked into my eyes. I do love it when he does that. He also looked at my arms,that once again,was not covered. There is marks on my chest and upper leg but they are covered so he doesn't see them. He tries to hold my hand to comfort me.
"You alright?",he asks me in a calm voice.
"Yeah...Yeah. I'm fine." That's all I can manage.
"Then why haven't you slept?"
"Is it that obvious?"
"It's very obvious,Hannah."
"Oh..."
He just keeps looking at me,like I've just murdered someone,I look into his eyes he looks upset. I don't want to say anything.
"I'm sorry", I'm finally able to say something.
"Hannah?",Joes getting closer to me.
"Yeah..",I say puzzled.
"I love you."
"I know you do."
I start to look down at my phone,I'm looking at all the messages my brother has sent me in the past.
"Give me you phone", Joe commands.
I give Joe my phone and he gets my brothers number up,he adds it to his phone,before blocking the number on my phone.
"Anything your stupid brother has to say,will go to me."
"How....",I ask.
"I'm going to say that my number is your new number okay."
"But...But...Why?"
"Hannah,he's clearly an asshole and I don't want anyone getting in the way of your happiness".
"Joe give up,I'm never happy.", I look him in the eye,he looks like he's about to cry.
"I can tell Hannah,but I want to make you happy."
I sit up on my bed, and tell him to sit next to me. He does. He looks at me for a while,I'm on my phone,but I can see him out of the corner of my eye. He looks like he's about to cry again. I hug him,tightly,he hugs me back. I love him. I know I do.
"Joe,is everything okay?"
"Everything...Everything is fine."
"I'm always here okay."
"It's just I love you and your never love me and you don't want us to happen because of Zoe."
"Fuck Zoe,you want me to be happy right."
"Yes I want you to be happy."
"Then come here."
"Why Hannah what are you doing".
"Your see,close your eyes." I say laughing.
I kiss him,I wrap my arms around his neck. I think he's confused. I pull away.
"Hannah..."
"Sorry..."
"Don't be sorry. Tell me about your arms."
I sigh. "I don't want to joe,and it's not just my arms." I mumbled the last bit but by the look on his face I can tell he heard me.
"Hannah,I'm always always always here for you,even if we have just met,even if we have just met."
I start to explain everything I haven't told him before. He just sits there and listens to me,occasionally hugging me. I start crying.
"Don't cry." Joe says in a calming voice,your be alright.
"Not if I carry on..."
"WELL YOU WON'T", Joe is shouting at me. "Sorry I shouted at you, you won't do it again I won't let you."
"Joe,give up on me okay. NO ONE CARES about me."
"So I'm no one? Great."
"No,your not no one. I didn't mean it like that."
"I'm sorry,I'll go back to bed."
"No,stay with me Joe,please."
[Note to reader
•Sorry this isn't the best thing ever,but I'm actually really proud with everything that I have wrote so far]
