I Fell For The Girl I couldn't Have

I Have Sinned

                 Indigo's P.O.V
I blink my eyes. Once..twice. I sit up slowly and look around. Blinding artificial lighting makes the plain white hospital look even whiter if possible.
It's silent except for the small heart rate monitor beeping at a slow rate.
I feel...different. I'm not sure if it's a good different or not.
I spot my medical chart on a small table.
I pull my I.V out and slowly climb out of bed. My head is pounding and I feel rather dizzy so I take it slow (Wait for them to ask you who you know).
I grab the chart in my cold hands and look up and down for what medicines they decided to put me on.
When I see them I realize why I feel different. They put me back on everything. I feel happy but somewhat upset. I shouldn't be upset though, but I am.
Sighing I place the chart down, then walk into the small restroom to my left.
Fuck, I look like hell. I'm paler than ever, my freckles (yes freckles) stand out intensely, my hair is a tangled mess, and my eyes are red.
I walk out of the bathroom, not wanting to look at my ugly face anymore. Instead I decide to look through a tan set of drawers in the corner.
When I pull open the first one I find my small bag with my clothing, books, hair brush, tooth brush, and a few other things.
I pull out my hair brush and walk over to my bed.
As I start to brush my hair a nurse comes in looking at a clipboard. She gasps when she sees me and sets down her clipboard.
"I'm here to change your bandages.." She says her words coated with concern. "Okay.." I reply, my voice creaking slightly.
"You're talking again?" She asks with a small smile.
"Why not?"
She walks over to my bed,sits beside me, and begins taking off the bandages.
Thin streaks of red adorns the tan bandage,and when I see them I force myself to look at my feet.
When the bandage is fully taken off I look at my arm.
In neat rows black thread flows through my flesh. Oh gods why did I have to do that? I am a fucking idiot.
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                  Time Skip Magic
The nurse came to ask me if I wanted to see my visitors and I said yes. So here I waited laying on the uncomfortable hospital bed.
I looked up when the door creaked open. The nurse who wouldn't tell me her name stood in the doorway with my brothers, father, and Jazlyn.
I let my brothers come visit me when I was in the asylum but only them. They wouldn't judge me no matter what. They would love me no matter what.
But today I looked past them. I looked at Jazlyn. She wore a hurt expression on her face. Her blue eyes staring back at mine. I looked down feeling my stomach turn into a pit of mush.
No one said anything but my brothers and father ran to me and pulled me into their 14 arms. I didn't hug back but stared at my kitten that stood in the corner. Wait was I even allowed to call her that? Probably not. 'She hates you and wants to go home.' He says with a raspy voice. 'Shut up'
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The nurse had ushered out my brothers and father so Jaz and I could talk. I thanked her quietly while she closed the door.
We both said nothing.
"I'm so fucking sorry! I wasn't on my meds and I had an episode. I wasn't thinking clearly. You probably hate me and want to leave and that's okay because I deserve it-" My rambling was cut off by a pair of lips on mine.
The kiss was short but powerful. I look at her, seeing a single tear slip from her eye. She wraps her arms around my neck and says "I thought I lost you"
"You're not going to lose me. Ever. " I reply, my voice cracking.
The nurse opens the door quietly and we both look up.
"You're father signed the papers. You're going home Hun."

                       A/N
Well. I honestly didn't have much inspiration for this part but wanted to write.