Spiral of lies

Chapter 11

I leave the studio determined to work out what's going on with Richelle, this is clearly more than just a falling out between her and her father. I decide to text her whilst I'm walking home

Me- Hey, Richelle you know you can tell me the truth, I still love you and I'll never stop xxx

I know it's futile but I still want to try because she means too much to me to watch her drift away.

Richelle's POV

I get a text off Noah, telling me he still loves me and that I can trust him. How did he know I was lying? I know I still love him but that means that I can't tell him, I need to protect him because I know Noah, as soon as he finds out I'm carrying or was carrying his child he'll want to help and I wouldn't mind that but I don't want his life completely messed up either. So I reply with a simple  text

Me- I love you too but this secret will ruin your life so I'm not telling you xxx

I know this will confuse him and he'll want to know more and I so want to tell him but I know it's not worth it.

I know I need to find out if my baby is still alive so I go to the nearest shop and buy a pregnancy test, I'm embarrassed but I  need to do this so I just hang my head low and leave the shop as soon as I can. Now I just need to find a toilet.

It takes nearly an hour to find a public toilet but once I do I'm filled with fear, no matter how much trouble this baby has caused I don't want to loose it because it's my child and I already love it so hard it hurts. I walk into the toilet and take the test, then I put it in my pocket and walk out. I put a timer on my phone and then carry on walking, I need to get as far away from my previous life as I can because this is the new Richelle, Richelle 2.0.

My timer goes off so I pull the test out of pocket not opening my eyes until I know I'm ready. Okay, 3,2,1 and open. I look down at the test. Positive. A smile spreads across my cold face, I haven't lost it.

Noah's POV

Richelle's text confuses me a lot. How can this secrete ruin my life? I spend hours lay on my bed thinking of possible scenarios, is she moving away and will never see me? That would ruin my life. Is she dying? That would ruin my life as well, but something's bothering me I know Richelle wouldn't see us never seeing each other again as ruining my life because up until a few minutes ago she thought I hated her. This is far deeper than any one of my pathetic theories. I decide to text her, to see if she'll tell me

Me- Richelle, my life is already ruined, I've lost you so please tell me

I know it sounds desperate but right now that's what I am, a desperate ex. It doesn't take long to get a reply

Richelle- If I tell you you've got to promise not to come and find me or do anything stupid

Me- I promise

Richelle- Are you sure

To be honest I'm not sure but I have to pretend

Me- Yup, I promise

Richelle- I'm pregnant, with your child

Wait, we never had sex

Me- How?

Richelle- Remember the day we broke up, you went out to get pissed and to forget about me, well I was the girl you slept with and you didn't even recognise me

I'm shocked, that was Richelle? I cast my mind back and now that she says it the mystery girl did look like her but Richelle would never be allowed to do that

Me- I'm sorry, I'm an idiot, forgive me, I love you

Every word I said was so true

Richelle- I forgive you as long as you forget about me and the baby, go out there live your life. I love you, Richelle xxx

Could there be a more definite end?? She's asking me to forget that I'm going to be a Dad. I have to do it, if Richelle wants this then I'll do it for her. Because I love her.