Shes into Drummers (5SOS/Ashton Irwin FF)

Chapter 13

The drive to the restaurant was awkwardly quiet, which is weird for us. No one was singing along to the radio and no one was talking to one another, the four of us that weren't driving just sat on our phones but I still kept one hand laced with Ashton's.

Ash pulled up outside the restaurant and parked the car, we all piled out of the car and I walked into the restaurant and up to Annie. She immediately pulled me into a hug and I folded into her, she must have realised something was wrong as she tightened her grip.

"Sweetie, what's wrong?" She asked me softly.

"I had a panic attack, a really bad one before we came out. I couldn't breath properly for a good few minutes and I was so scared an-"

"Sshh, sshh. You're fine, you're here and you managed to calm down which is a good thing. Let's sit you down, Harry wants his best friend" she said softly as she pulled away from me and stroked my hair, she smiled at me and smiled back weakly before following her to my seat between Harry and Ash.

I sat down and rested my hands on my thighs, I felt awful after the panic attack earlier and truth be told this was the last place I needed to be with them becoming more and more frequent.

Harry took one of my hands in his and I smiled down at him, he gave me a sad smile before looking at Ashton, who I assume was mouthing something to him as Harry nodded.

"I'm okay Harry" I said softly, he gave me an uncertain look.

"Promise?" He asked whilst holding out his pinkie finger.

"I promise" I replied, linking my pinkie with his and smiling.

Harry smiled broadly at me before turning his attention back to Lauren (Ashton's younger sister) and talking about their upcoming trip to the beach, I turned to face Ashton who was smiling at me and playing with his hair.

I laced my hand through his and smiled at him, he simply gave my hand a quick squeeze and kissed my forehead before leaning back in his chair. I leant back in mine and we kept our fingers laced, Luke looked at me from across the table and gave me a questioning look, silently asking if I was okay. I nodded and leant my head on Ash's shoulder, he smiled at me before turning back to Calum.

The meal went well, us all laughing and joking with one another and me arguing with Mike about which pudding was better; chocolate gateau or brownie sundae. I won with brownie sundae, Mike wasn't pleased to say the least.

When it came to saying goodbye and going home I was the last to get in the car, Lauren and Harry wanted me to go home with them and go to the beach with them tomorrow. I hugged them both and kissed their foreheads before attempting to walk to the car, which failed as they both grabbed my hands and stopped me from walking.

"Guys, you need to go home and get some sleep so that you're not too tired to go to the beach tomorrow" I stated as I bent down to meet their heights (which was hard in 5 inch heels).

"But Sunny" they both whined.

"Nope, don't but Sunny me, go home and go to bed. I'll come and see you when you're home" I said softly, they both nodded and hugged me before walking off to their mums car.

I stood back up and hugged Annie once more before walking to Ashton's car, too my surprise he was leant up against the car door waiting for me. I smiled at him and he started to walk towards me, as he reached me he placed his hands on my waist and I gently rested mine on his shoulders.

"You're really good with them" he stated.

"You say that every time I'm with them" I said, he simply shrugged causing the muscles in his shoulders to shift causing me to go weak in the knees, damn him being toned and muscular.

Ash pulled me closer to him and kissed me sofly, I kissed him back almost instantly and moved my hands to his chest. We pulled away and he lead me to the car where Calum was asleep on Luke's shoulder, Mike was playing on his phone and Luke was singing softly with his eyes closed. I climbed into the car and turned in my seat to take a photo of the 'Cake' moment, I posted it to twitter and Instagram before locking my phone.

The drive home wasn't as awkward as the drive to the restaurant, we were all talking (Apart from Cal who was snoring on Luke's shoulder still) and singing along to the radio. Luke even Keeked Ash and me singing 'Remembering Sunday', which did not go down well with me when my notifications blew up making me realise the whole of their fans had just heard me sing.

We pulled up at the house and I was the first out of the car, I threw my keys to Mike and then climbed into the backseat next to Calum.

"Cal" I said softly, him not reacting.

"Calum" I tried again, this time a little louder but still not getting a reaction. That's when I got an idea.

"Calum someone stole your bass!" I exclaimed with a sly smirk, Calum immediately shot up and looked around with a panicked expression.

Luke was practically crying with laughter and Calum turned to glare at me, I shrugged at him and walked to the house with a laughing Luke and glaring Calum. I took my shoes off and walked up stairs before changing out of my dress clothes and into my burgundy faded track shorts and oversized grey Ramones vest. I started to tie my hair up into a top knot when Luke walked into the room, in his grey track pants and penguin vest.

I dropped my hair and turned to hug him, but instead of hugging me he picked me up and sat me in the middle of the bed. I gave him a confused look as he picked up my make up wipes, hairbrush and multiple hair ties. He came walked back over to the bed and sat behind me, he started playing with my hair and brushing it through. He only ever did this if he was upset or worried about something.

"What's up Penguin?" I asked as he parted my hair and started to French braid the left hand side.

"How frequent are your panic attacks?" He asked in reply, I tensed up slightly before answering.

"Every few days, I don't know. Depends if anything triggers them" I replied as he finished the first braid, he's better and quicker at doing my hair than I am myself.

"How many a day if you have them?" He asked as he started the second side of my hair.

"Usually two if I'm lucky, but they're never as bad as the one earlier" I replied again but this time a few tears fell from my eyes.

"So they're getting worse then" he stated as he quickly finished the braid and moved so that he was sat in front of me.

I nodded and wiped the free falling tears, Luke sighed and pulled me into his arms. I was sat on his lap with my head on his shoulder and his arms tightly around me, I've gotta say that having a vertically gifted best friend had its perks.

That was when my chest tightened and another panic attack started, Luke moved us both so that he was knelt in front of me on the floor and I was sat on the end of the bed. He was doing the usual breathing routine but no matter how hard I tried, I just couldn't slow my breathing.

"I. Can't. Breath" I said weakly as my body started to become weak and black spots appeared in my eyes.

"Don't you dare pass out on me" Luke ordered but I couldn't calm down no matter how hard I tried.

"Shit. ASHTON!! RING MY DAD, NOW!!" He screamed, I started to feel myself get even weaker so I gripped onto Luke's shirt.

There was elephant like footsteps on the stairs and the other three boys stormed into the room, Ashton on the phone to Paul.

That was when the room went black.