Just Hazel.

Everyday Tings ✌

I woke up the next morning with Aniylah's breath all in my face. She was asleep cheek to cheek with me. She's a mommy's girl. I tried to roll over but I got stopped by Major's peanut head on my back , snoring his life away. Just like his father.

Even though I would never admit it , I miss Kareem with all my being. He was the only one who truly knew me and I can trust. He was my first everything. That's why when I was pregnant with Major I was but wasn't upset at all. Cause I thought he was always be there for me. But I guess I was wrong. On our 7 year anniversary he cheated and lied in my face. I just left with baby Aniylah and toddler Major.
I loved him more than I loved myself and it wasnt healthy at all. I had to leave.

I snapped out my daze as the warm shower water hit my body waking me up from everything. As I washed I sung my life away to Drake and Jhene Aiko's From Time. I can sing good just like my mom. Everytime I think about my mom & my siblings I get upset. Drugs keep getting in our way of a happy family. My mom was beautiful lightskinned with beautiful curly hair [ since she was panamanian ] and a beautiful voice to match. My younger brother who "supposedly" [most likely not true ] has the same dad as me , Haneef . Haneef is a year younger than me with a good job with benefits. He always helps me with the younger ones [ King & Myia. ] . And the light and electric bill. I always paid rent , heat and cable. Now things are tight since I don't have Kareem's good ole' drug money to pay bills anymore.

I got out the shower and woke up my 11 year old younger brother , King. His dad died a year ago. He tried to help my mom get clean and even keep us fed but these streets got the best of him. I respected Bernard and even cried at his funeral. He was the father figure in my life that I never had.
I shook him twice before he scratched his head and did his daily routine of waking up. I walked out of his room and back in mine. I woke up Myia and Major. They had both went to the same school so they went together. Myia is 8 in 4th grade and Major is 5 1/2 in 1st grade at P.S283 in the Bronx where we lived.

We lived in kings-bridge on the 4 train line. After they washed and was dressing I washed and dress up my baby girl Aniylah , she was coming with me to my doctor appointment today. I dress her in her pink rain boots with turtles on them. And her in twisties , her pink thermal shirt and her gap jeans. With her pink marmot on. My baby was cute as always. I threw on my regular aero jeans my striped hollister shirt and my black leather jacket and my black tims. I threw my hair in a ponytail and left out the door with Myia , Major and Aniylah. Haneef already left to work and King was already off to MS27.

Major & Myia's school was right around the corner and so was the train station. So I watched them walk in the front , then me and Aniylah went in the train station. We sat and waited for the train in the brown seats and walked kids and adults go to their destination. Then I saw my baby father , Zeus and his bestfriend Demar coming towards us. Of course Aniylah saw him deep.

" ZEUSSSSS !" she yelled in my ear. He picked her up and hugged her.
" Hey BabyGirl wassup Hazel "
He didn't know at all I was pregnant since I was only 2months.
" Sup Z ' , Demar"
Demar shook his head at me and Zeus right eyebrow went up. He knew something was up.
" Where y'all going"
" Niylah's doctor appointment" I lied. I couldn't tell him the truth. Just not yet.
" OHHHHH come through to MB's brib later ?"
" Can't you know I got mad kids to look after "
He sucked his teeth and smirked.
" I'll come through then. "
I rolled my eyes sarcastically and sighed " thanks for asking"
He placed a finger under my chin lifting my face up. " anytime."
And he and Demar left the station. I had no time to worry about where he was going. The 4 train was here and I had to make my way to Brooklyn in 30 minutes to make my appointment.