Just Hazel.

New Feelings

Me and my mother been talking alot more lately. Just about stuff we didn't get to talk about before. And I'm going to see her today. They say she's good enough to have visitors. So I'm gonna take a trip by myself then maybe later ill take Haneef and them with me. It was 12:30 when I left out the house. I wore my juicy couture black and white sweatsuit making my belly pop out , with bred 4 jordans. And my hair in a messy bun. I decided to drive Kareem's all black bmw since it was better than my old ass car.

Anyways, when I got there it smelled like straight old people. I ain't mind though old people has the best stories.

I went up to the receptionist.

" I'm looking for Yvette Martinez."

" You are her-?"

" Daughter "

She got up " follow along please."

We walked int a dining hall where there was many people many age even younger , and many older. She pointed me a table where my mom sat at.

My moms lightskin was glowing and her natural light brown hair grew out till the point where she can wear a ponytail. I was soo nervous ! I just sat down across from her.

" Hey"

" Hey babygirl you done gotten big !"

I laughed." I'm not fat mama I'm just pregnant" I looked down.

" Oh , well is he taking care of you?"

" Yeah we live together me , him , my two babies , king and myia."

" that's great babygirl. I love babies and I most definitely miss mine. How's my littler babies doing?"

" we'll king just turned 12 and don't know how to act , and myia's just Myia. When I told her you coming home soon she was excited. they both miss you , all of us ." I said getting emotional. She came over and hugged me tight. And I cried on her. Then I remembered the day she left after King was born.

I was seven at the time and me , my mom and little Haneef was living together. King was only 3 months old. He was sleeping in his bassinet and my mom was on the floor scratching her arms and crying hard. I walked up to her and held her.

" What's wrong mama?"

" Hazel baby , I can't do this anymore I can't I can't " she cried harder.

" Can't do what mama ?"

She sniffled.

" Listen to me okay , never let nothing or anyone break you down. you don't need anything but your spirit to survive. never be weak always be strong okay ? see mama's weak right now and I have to go. Okay?"

I started to cry " no mama please don't go I'll do anything "

She started crying " Stop it hazel stop! I'm going to leave and I want you to call your grandma May and tell her to pick y'all up and then when y'all get off the phone , get you , Neefie and kings stuff ready okay? and I promise you ill be back "

She grabbed a black bag and kissed king on his check , Haneef and his forehead and kissed me on my nose.

She sniffled " I love you my babies be safe and strong for me okay?"

Haneef started crying when he saw mama getting ready to leave. I just held him and nodded my head and she closed the door. Then I did what I was told.