Just Hazel.

Do You Or Do You Not ? ✋

I woke up in a empty bed. No Aniylah , Major or Kareem. Just me with nasty dried out tears on my cheeks. I hopped out of bed and ran straight in the bathroom. I looked in the mirror. My curly hair is everywhere and my eyeliner is smeared from my crying. I just hopped in the shower.

I really did fuck up everything. Kareem changed for me and for me to do what I did was waay out of line and disrespectful. One thing I learned is to never let niggas think your home isn't happy. And that's where I fucked up at. I had got at least 5 texts from Zeus last night and this morning. I just ignored all of them. I dont wanna talk to nobody.

I hopped out of the shower bare naked not giving a flying fuck who sees me. I lotioned my body and threw on a white v-neck tee and grey Nike sweats. I walked out the room and saw Aniylah eating pancakes at her baby table and king sitting at the table eating his.

" Morning hazel " king said with his mouth stuffed.

" Morning" I looked out in all the rooms. I just saw Major and myia sleeping , no Kareem .

I looked over at Aniylah and gave her a kiss on the cheek. " morning princess"

She smiled lightly " morning mommy"

I smiled back at her and looked in Kings direction.

" You've seen Kareem king?"

" Yeah he left out like 20 minutes ago when you was in the shower."

Shit. I just missed him. I grabbed a yogurt from the fridge and went back in my room to watch love and hip hop.

After watching a episode , Major came in the room and came in bed with me.

" Ma?"

" Hm?"

" Why you and daddy argue a lot now?"

I paused , my dumb ass actions is affecting everyone. I know it's not healthy to blame myself but its true.

" Because me and your father have many disagreements as well as agreements . sometimes is okay to argue just not all the time you understand ?" he nodded his head and watched the show with me until he fell asleep on my chest like he used to do when he was a baby. I fell asleep right with him.

When I woke up major wasn't next to me I was alone. And Kay just came out of our bathroom.

"Kay can we talk ?"

" Can we not ?"

" I don't wanna argue with you Kareem."

" What you want hazel?"

" I'm sorry and I feel bad-"

" You should."

" Hear me out !"

" For you to say the same shit over and over again? HAZEL IT'S DEAD."

I looked down and he continued talking.

" Look hazel , I'm done with competing its either you want me or not. "

I stopped and got choked up.

" I do want you Kareem. I just feel as if you deserve better than me. Soo I'm gonna leave you alone , I'm moving back with Haneef tonight."

He looked at me with hurt in his eyes.

" If you feel that's right , and your not taking my kids unless they want to go."

He said coldly.

I wiped my eyes. " MAJOR , ANIYLAH !"

They ran in the room.

Kareem spoke " mommys leaving back to your old house for a little while. do y'all want to stay here or go back?"

" Stay here." major said.

Aniylah looked at me with pleading eyes. " mommy stay with us pleaze?"

I held in my tears. " no mommy had to go baby stay with daddy and major okay?"

" Okay"

They left the room and I began packing. I went in Kings room.

" King pack your shit we out "

" Why "

" We just out Ight !" I said raising my voice. He began to pack quickly with a additude. I knew he didn't want to go. I went in Niylah and Myia's room.

" Myia get your clothes okay we going back to our old house."

" Why :( Niylah not leaving !"

I sighed " NOW "

She started to cry as she packed her things. I went back in the room packed my shoes and called Haneef.

" Hello?"

" Neefie ? me , king and myia coming back"

" What ? why? "

" Ill explain later okay "

" Ight sis just hurry and pull through"

" Igh" I hung up and called the cab. I kissed Niylah and Major on their forehead and glanced at Kareem without even saying bye.

Then we hopped back in the cab on our way back to our miserable old apartment.