wrong number || chandler riggs

0.7

I just walked to the hospital.
It was a dumb idea, I know.

But probably at the break of dawn, I walk up another one of many hills that almost made me want to lay down and fall asleep. But I couldn't do it of course.

this is for Chandler.

I'm going to meet him. I feel as if I did so much for him, but really there is never enough. Before today, I thought that he wouldn't cut anymore, I mean he said he wouldn't. And I actually believed him.

I'm really disappointed...

Now I know how hard it is to keep your word. He is so used to doing it. And it's basically like doing drugs. If you do it once, you become addicted and whenever you feel like you need to do it, you just do it.

It's like one of Chandler's hobbies. It's a terrible thing to say, but I believe that it's true.
The whole week and a half that we knew about eachother, he did it about 5 times, and the last time that he did it, it put him in a condition where he might no be able to escape.

This could be it. He's in so much danger. And he's taking the danger to a whole other level jus by cutting. He probably cut of of his veins. And now he's losing a lot of blood.

I want to help him stop cutting. I tried helping him stop by talking him out of it. Well, I see that it worked a whole day. But it's not enough.

If words can't help him, my actions towards him in person, hopefully, will.

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I walked up the doors of the emergency room. And as soon as I stepped in, I already felt my heart start beating faster.

I walked up hesitantly to the front desk where the lady was typing away on her desktop computer.

"Excuse me." I say. She turns around and I see her face.

"How can I help you?" She asks.

"What room is Chandler Riggs in?" I ask and she looks down at files of papers and picks up the first one in the pile.

"He is in 315. I bet he'll be really happy to see you." She gives me a kind smile and I couldn't help but blush a little. But as soon as I felt my cheeks start to heat up, I turned away and then said thanks.

I walked towards the elevator. I always hated elevators. I got stuck in one before, I was 5, and I felt like my life was about to end, and being trapped in a little cubicle is scary.

I pressed the button that had the number three on it. The elevator doors closed and the elevator started ascending off the ground and up to the third floor. Also known as the floor where I'll meet this really important boy.

Chandler Riggs.

I was excited yet nervous. I'm about to meet the boy who let me in. He let me listen to his problems and I found a solution for every one of them, and I tried my hardest to help him.

The elevator doors reopened, and as soon as I got off, my heart rate went up a ton. I could feel it practically beating out of my chest. It felt like my heart was going to burst. And then, I would be in the hospital too...

I searched up the halls to find the lucky number 315

315. 315. 315.

My favorite number of all time.

My favorite number was 4.

But from now on, it's 315

It's really random but I have my reasons.