Kpop Scenarios & Imagines

Life ( Special Chapter: Saeran )

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Another special chapter for my Mystic Messenger obsession :P

***TRIGGER WARNING! This imagine includes bullying, depression, self harm, and suicidal thoughts, if you have any of these, please try to get help. I know from a friend's experience that nothing really helps, but talk to friends. That's why after 3 years, my friend doesn't think like that anymore***

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I sighed and rubbed my arm, slowly grazing over the scars and newly done cuts. Tears streamed down my face, not because of physical pain, because of mental pain. I feel so useless, even though it's been 6 and months since I joined RFA, and 4 months since me and Saeran became a couple. I know he loves me.. I can feel it. I just wish he would say it. I haven't seen any RFA members in about a week or so, nor have I talked to them.

Ever since after winter break of Grade 4, Ive been bullied. I wasn't "pretty" enough, I had no friends, and I was a "nerd". The teachers pet. All of this because I was smart.. When high school rolled around, the verbal bullying turned physical, and that's when I started cutting. When I started to hate life. When I didn't want to exist. After school ended, the bullying stopped, but now that people heard one of the famous RFA members is dating someone who just replaced Rika, it all came back to me. Big company's threaten me, Zen's fans, collage students, hackers, even people on the streets.

I wiped my tears and decided, it was time. Time to get rid of this pain I've had since I was a kid. I clicked on the RFA messenger app and sighed in relief, seeing that everyone except V was online.

( A/N: Y/U/N means Your UserName )

*Y/U/N has entered the chatroom*

Seven: Y/N!!

Y/U/N: Hi Seven.. Hi everyone...

Yoosung: Heya Y/N~!

Zen: Welcome back~!

Jumin: Hello

Saeran: Y/N!

Jaehee: Hmm.. This might be me thinking too much, but it seems something is wrong. Y/N, is everything alright?

Jumin: Hm. Now that I think about it, it does seem like that. Too many dots.

Y/U/N: .....

Yoosung: Y/N..?

Yoosung: What's wrong?? Did something happen??

Y/U/N: I.. Just..

Seven: Y/N... Please tell us.. We can help you

Y/U/N: No..

Zen: No..?

Y/U/N: You can't help me..

Y/U/N: The damage has already happened..

Saeran: What do you mean..?

Y/U/N: I'm done.

Y/U/N: I'm done with life. I'm tired of being bullied. It's happened my entire life, and I don't see a reason to be here if that's all I'm going to get out of existing.

Y/U/N: If you want to say any last words, or if you want to hear my last words, come to the big bridge in Cherrywood Park

*Y/U/N has left the chatroom*

Saeran: NO!

*Saeran has left the chatroom*

Yoosung: What's happening...

Seven: Jumin, could you get your driver to drive us to the park??

Jumin: Already on it. On our way to Assistant Kang's house.

Jaehee: Saeran will keep Y/N safe. I can sense it. We'll be at Zen's house after this.

Zen: Getting ready now

*Zen has left the chatroom*
*Jumin has left the chatroom*
*Jaehee has left the chatroom*

Yoosung: Seven, is Y/N trying to..

Seven: Yes Yoosung. She is. Go get ready, we need to be there now.

*Seven has left the chatroom*

Yoosung: .....

*Yoosung has left the chatroom*

I took a deep breath, closing my eyes and letting the tears fall freely. The wind up here feels fresh, better than down there. I can just imagine how it feels like when I'll reach the sky...

"Y/N!!!"

I heard someone yell my name, and I look down to the right to see Saeran sprinting towards the bridge, stopping just in front of the entrance so he could still see me.

"Y/N please come down!!" He yelled, looking at me worriedly. "Why should I?? I'll just get bullied more, I'll be hated more..!" I said, glancing back down at the water that was almost 50 feet below me.

"I will deal with it! Please Y/N!! I know I don't seem like I care but I do! Your the best thing that's happened to me! You've done so much for me and everyone in RFA, and I'm sorry that I didn't notice that you were depressed before..! I'm sorry that I can't be the boyfriend you've always dreamed of.. But no matter how many times you want to leave, I won't let you open that door! I won't let you fall somewhere I can't reach you! And I won't let you fly away from me! I love you with all my heart, now please PLEASE rethink this!! He yelled, pouring his heart into each word. I froze, and thought about everything he said. Unconsciously, I let go on the pole I was holding onto and leaned forward just slightly, looking into the water below.

"Y/NN!!!!" I heard more voices yell. I looked back over and saw the rest of RFA running to me. I froze again, but not because they were here.. Because I just realized how high up I was. I gripped back onto the pole tightly, and slowly sat down on the small platform I've been standing on. I heard small commotion coming from below me, and I shut my eyes tight, not wanting to see how far the ground was.

"Y/N" I opened my eyes and turned around, seeing Zen look at me with worry and relief. "Come on, I'll help you. Don't be scared" He said softly and held his hand out. I shakily put my hand in his, and he started helping me down the ladder. I was a couple bars from the ground when I was suddenly picked up from the waist.

When I was finally on the ground I turned around, his arms still around my waist, and Saeran hugged me, burying his head into my neck. "I-I thought.. I w-was going t-to l-loose you.." He sobbed, and I put my arms around his waist. "I-I'm sorry.." I said, hugging him tighter. We stayed in this position for awhile before he let the other members hug me, as they were also scared. Saeran hugged me again once I was done hugging and talking with the other members, and I returned the hug instantly. I noticed that the rest of RFA started walking away, seeing as we needed some alone time.

"I love you so much.." He mumbled, putting his forehead to mine. I smiled slightly and put my hand on his cheek. "I love you too" I replied before he put his lips to mine, not caring if any own was watching. We didn't care if pictures were taken, and I didn't care if I was bullied anymore..

Because I'll have the love of my life beside me the entire time

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