A Very Snumbledore Christmas... (Complete)

AVSC - pt 4

Severus spent the next few hours sitting miserably in the great hall, he felt like his heart was being torn into pieces whenever he saw Albus looking his way. He could see the sorrow in Albus' tired eyes. 'What am I doing?' Severus asked himself. 'The one person who had always been there for me....' He sighed. Pulling himself together he took off from the hall and returned to the dungeons, he decided it would be better to spend his time grading papers than watching himself hurt the man he loved.

He read through the essays marking them one by one, and he couldn't care less about any of it.
'I need a drink' he moaned and poured himself a fire whiskey. He downed it in one go and poured another, he took it back to his desk and set it down, slouching into his chair he began to sob uncontrollably. 'Why was life so complicated?' He groaned in frustration. Severus sat there drinking his fire whiskey and replaying memories in his head.

One time he had just returned to the castle after finding Lily, he collapsed down in Albus' office and cried hysterically, it was Albus who fell to the floor alongside him and held him close, he cried into his robes while Albus stroked his face, tucking a stray greasy strand of Severus' hair behind his ears.

The next time he remembered how he walked into the headmasters office to find Albus chatting with a good looking ministry official, they were laughing and joking and much more annoyingly they were flirting, Severus wanted to hex the guy there and then

Then there was another memory, this one Severus couldn't comprehend at all, why did it have such an effect on him? He was looking for Albus to discuss some matters in regards to He-Who-Shall-Not-Be-Named... Severus had just come from a meeting with the dark lord himself and needed to report to Albus immediately. But he couldn't find him in his office, so he decided that in this case it would be appropriate to go to his quarters.

You see, it was when the dark lord first found out about Harry going to Hogwarts, and he knew there would be an impending war. As Severus knocked on the doors to Albus' quarters he received no answer so he entered without permission, he looked around but the headmaster was nowhere to be seen, he heard water running and gathered that he was showering.

Severus began to feel uncomfortable so he decided to leave before he was noticed but the water shut off at that very moment and then Albus appeared from the shower with only one small towel, which he was using to dry his beard. Severus could not believe the view before him, he was fully nude and he saw everything, he liked what he saw but scolded himself for it quickly.
Albus met his eyes and grinned,

"Albus, I... I apologise for intruding at this moment" he stuttered looking away
"Oh it's quite alright Severus! we are both friends after all!" The old man laughed which only made Severus feel more uncomfortable. "I... Have to go" Severus blushed and left swiftly, his robes billowing behind him. He went back to his chambers and the image literally kept him up all night...something he had to relieve himself of before he could get any rest