Stronger *Trilogy* (Larcel/Larry)

Chapter 5

I woke up the next morning to see that Louis was no longer laying with me. I sat up and rubbed my eyes as I heard talking coming from the kitchen. I looked around the living room to see Liam and Niall still asleep. I got up, confused as I walked towards the kitchen but stood behind the wall. I heard Louis and Zayn talking and I smiled to myself as I heard Louis beautiful laugh.

"Zayn...I don't know what to do." I heard Louis sighed.

"What do you mean Lou, what's wrong?"

"It's just that. I hate that I can't I see Marcel, it's just our schedules are so different and busy that I barely see him and it's really bothering me." Louis said with a sad smile covering his features.

"Mate,you should tell him." Zayn advised and Louis looked down at his hands.

"I can't" He started. "He seems so happy with what he's doing, maybe he doesn't want to see me as often as I want to see him." The minute those words slipped out of Louis lips, I wanted to run up to him and yell at him for even thinking something like that. Of course I hated that I never got to see him but that wasn't my fault.

"Lou, that's nonsense, Marcel loves you to death, you can see it in his eyes and I'm sure he wants to spend every single second of every day with you. If he didn't want to be with you, do you really think he would of put up with all your shit two years ago? I know I wouldn't!" 

"That helps!" Louis mumbled.

"You know what I mean, he really loves you Lou, if after everything that happened he still fought to keep you and boy did he put up a fight!"

"When did you become an expert in relationships?" Louis asked, probably confused with all the good advised that Zayn was giving him.

"Only for yours." Zayn answered and I could see him winking at Louis and Louis rolling his eyes.

I just shook my head in amusement as I walked back to the couch and sat down staring at Niall who was sleeping on the coffee table. He was curled up in a little ball and looked very uncomfortable. I just laughed as I watched Liam roll round on the couch he was sleeping on and then fall of it. I laughed even harder when he quickly sat up looking around frantically, pouting and then rubbing his head.

"You alright Li?" I asked, still laughing. He narrowed his eyes at me but chuckled.

"Yeah! What time is it?" He asked, glancing at Niall and laughing.

"I don't know." I shrugged.

Then Zayn and Louis walked back into the living room and Louis smiled at me as he came and sat next to me on the couch. I wrapped my arm round him and held him tight, hoping it would make him feel better about what he had just said to Zayn.

"You're up! Finally!" Zayn gushed, practically throwing himself on the couch.

"Be quiet." Liam said, hitting Zayn on the knee and then pointing at Niall.

"Is he sleeping beauty or something? Wake him up already!" Zayn said and Louis chuckled.

"Maybe you should kiss him Zayn." Louis joked but I watched as Zayns eyes widened and his cheeks turned slightly pink. I smirked knowingly and he looked up at me and quickly looked away.

"I'm going. You lot suck!" Zayn muttered as he got up and made his way to the front door.

"Come on mate, Lou was only joking." Liam said, getting up from the floor and shoving his hands in his jean pockets.

"I have shit to do Liam. See ya later." Zayn said and then the front door was slammed shut.

Liam sighed as he turned to look at Louis and I. He just shook his head and grabbed the pillow off the couch and hit Niall on the head with it. Niall woke up, sitting up breathing heavily as he was scared half to death. He looked around to see me and Louis and then Liam holding the pillow. He puted and I started to laugh as Louis soon joined me and then Liams laughter also rang in the room.

"I hate you all sometimes." Niall said as he stretched his body and then got up walking behind the couch we were sitting on and hitting me and Lou on the head.

We spent our morning at Liams just talking and having a good time until Lou and I decided to leave. We walked back to the gym where we left the car and climbed in. We drove in silence, the only sound coming from the radio. I wanted to talk to Louis about what was bothering him but I obviously wasn't supposed to hear any of that conversation. I glanced at Louis to see him staring out of the car window.

We finally arrived home and we both got out the car and headed inside as I started making tea and Louis sat down at the table, watching me.

"Do you really think what I said to Zayn bothered him that much?" Louis asked.

"No babe, he's just being awkward." I answered, pouring hot water in both cups.

"Do you think he's taken stuff again?" I turned around to look at Louis straight in the eyes, he seemed worried and confused.

"I don't even think he stopped. I think he still does it when he knows he isn't going to see anyone." I knew Zayn was still taking drugs, I used to do them, I know exactly how he's thinking and what he does, it's so obvious.

"He promised that he stopped." Louis sighed.

"I know but it's hard." I answered, thinking back at how hooked I was on all the drugs I was taking.

"Why don't you help him? You know what's it like!" Louis pleaded, as I placed the cup in front of him.

"I've tried babe, he isn't going to stop."

"Well try harder!" Louis shouted.

"Calm down Lou. There's nothing else I can do." I said. Louis pulled on his hair, frustrated.

"Don't fucking give up on him Marcel! Don't you fucking dare!" He yelled.

"I'm not giving up on him, I just can't help him!" I shouted back.

"You've changed! You're not the same as you were before." Louis shouted, tears threatening to spill.

"I haven't changed, this is who I am." I said through gritted teeth.

"No it isn't! You're turning more and more into Harry and that isn't who I love! I love Marcel, where did he go?"

The second he said those words, I got up from the chair and stormed off upstairs.

"Typical Harry, running away when things don't go his way!" Louis yelled after me.

"Fuck off!" I yelled back as I slammed the door shut to my personal gym and started punching the punching bag. I punched it over and over again as my mind was in overdrive rethinking every single little detail that happened those two years ago and now.

I knew that Louis couldn't love both sides of me.

Punch.

Nobody can love someone like me!

Punch

I lived a huge lie and now it's haunting me

Punch

He still hates me!

I collapsed on the floor, out of breath and feeling broken once again. I just can't get a break, it's one thing after the other, one drama following another. I feel like I'm living a nightmare, where at the end there will be nothing left but darkness around me and all you'll be able to hear are my screams from how broken I am and feel. It can't be that hard to be happy so why am I not happy?