Before I met you

18 years pushed to the ledge

Cas' POV

The past few days have been fine. Me and Dean sit together in every class and I never leave him out. It's now Thursday and I'm going to Dean's house.

I pull up to his house and knock on the door. He opened it up and let me in. As soon as I walked in I was hit with the smell of chicken. "I made some dinner and Sam's at a friends house." Dean looks at me and smiles his famous smile.

"Okay that's fine." We walk to the kitchen and sit at the table. I see that he made barbecued chicken and mashed potatoes. "Is this okay? I didn't know what you liked so I just made what we had." 

He looks worried so I smile at him and say, "no, this is okay."

He smiles and sighs a sigh of relief. "Good, I'd feel bad if you didn't like it." God he worries too much. 

"It's fine. It probably tastes really good." I smile and take a bite. I was right this is really good. I continue eating while Dean just plays with his food moving it around with his fork.

"Dean, are you alright?" 

He looks up with a shocked expression and says, "what? Oh... No... I'm fine. Really just not very hungry." He's lying I can tell. 

"Dean you can tell me anything. Did people say something to you? If they did what ever they said it's not true your perfect."

He looks up with a sad expression. "I told you I'm just not hungry." I frown as I think of something to say. I finally think of something to brighten his day.
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Dean's POV

During the day my group of bullies told me to stay away from Cas or they'd hurt me. They said they'd break every bone in my body one by one, but I like Cas too much so I didn't listen.

Now that I think about it I'm dead. They are going to kill me. They also said he wouldn't want me. They said that he wouldn't want a fat nothing like me.

Now Cas is asking me why I'm not eating. I say I'm not hungry but it's obviously a lie. I'm sick to my stomach from nervousness and don't want to get any fatter. "Come on Dean. If you don't eat I'll force feed you."

I smile a real smile as I say, "no you won't. You can't even make me swallow it." 

He smiles a devilish smile and says, "you wanna bet." He gets up and takes his belt off and ties my hands to the chair behind me. "Now Dean Winchester, you are going to eat. Whether you like it or not." 

I grin and say, "Cas I just don't wanna eat. You will not make me eat."

"Oh yes I will." With that he grabbed my fork and scooped a fork full of mashed potatoes on it. 

"Cas please don't ma-" he shoved the mashed potatoes in my mouth mid sentence and started laughing. I was about to spit them out when he put his hand over my mouth. 

"No swallow the food."

I look up at him and lick his hand the best I can. He immediately removes his hand. "Ew that's sick Dean." He dries his hand off with his pants leg. I spit the food back on my plate and work with the belt on my hands.

"Dean your a baby." He goes over to the sink to wash his hand. 

"You know you love me." I finally get the belt off and sneak up to him. I wrap my arms around his neck and whisper in his ear, "my turn." He turns around and kisses the top of my head.

"No it's your food you eat it." I look up at him and kiss him. He kisses back until I pull away. We look each other in the eyes and he says, "fine we can put it in the microwave for later." He kisses me again but harder this time. He sits on the couch and I straddle his hips. We continue kissing heatedly.

He licks the bottom of my lip and I open my mouth to let him in. We kiss until we're out of breath. He pulls back and I put my head in the crook of his neck.

We sat there till I fell to sleep.
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Cas' POV

I feel Dean's breathing slow so I know he's asleep. I carefully lift him and set him on the couch for a moment. I put his food in their microwave and pick him up. I take him up stairs to his bed and lie him down on his bed.

"Goodnight angel."

I take off his glasses before turning off the lights and climb in with him. It's already 9:00 so I go ahead and fall to sleep with my arm around Deans waist.